Internet blues

No Internet in the house today, thank the gawds for my phone and wi-fi.

Just a quick post.

Weigh-in: 270.6

Down a little today. :)

It's a light eating day for me, i'm just not in the mood for food. Got some grits and chick-chick baby food for my late lunch. Likely won't finish this. That is an 7oz ramikin, 4oz grits, 3oz baby food.

Lots of house chores have been done today. Laundry laundry laundry, dishes, vacuuming, dished washed by hand and in the dishwasher, dog washed and garbage taken out. A long hot bath is on the agenda for tonight. I can't wait!

Downward trend

Last night we went out with some friends for a fancy dinner to celebrate my Husbeasts new job. The friends we took with us had a hand in him getting new said job. We wanted to treat them as this has really changed our lives, almost doubled his income, halved his on call duties, and is in general BETTER!  YAY!

We also hit the gym with the husband of this couple, so they know about my surgery, which makes it WAY easier to eat out with them -- no pressure to eat more.

We went to a great seafood restaurant, shared some tasty appies.  I had a cauliflower & shrimp soup for entree and then a demitasse cup of sweet leaf ice cream for dessert.  Plus we all shared bites of the great food they had.

Overindulged, yes. And this morning I could feel the puff in my hands from all the salt that chefs use. This is life and I'm not eating out every night, so I'm not feeling guilty.

Weigh in this morning was up - 270.8.   Understandably, given last nights late meal (8pm).

So to make myself feel better I did my November weight chart.  The trend is downwards. That is all that matters. Its not fasts this month, but its heading in the right direction. 

Happy Friday All!

1 month sleeversary

1 Month

Starting weight – 301

1 Month weight – 269.4

Pounds lost – 31.6

Pant sizes down – 2

Shirt size down – 1

One month in.  Wow, feels like so much longer (in a good way). I have been reading lots of blogs about people that are 8, 9, 15 months, plus into their surgeries and I want to be there already. However, I also wanted to wake up from the surgery skinny too, so you don’t always get what you want! Ha!

I really couldn’t be more happy with the surgery and what its done for me, even in this little beginner stage – One Month. Not for just the weight and the dress sizes. There have been a lot of other amazing changes. 

Here are my amazing improvements:

1. I have gone from a 4-6 ibuprofen a day habit down to ZERO.  You’re welcome liver and kidneys!!
2. Sleep – SO.MUCH.BETTER.
3. Moving, biking, walking, stairs…. All seriously easier!
4. My shoes all fit again and, lo and behold, they don’t leave giant red lines in my feet anymore!
5. No more binging. Not even close to physically possible anymore.
6. Hey! Wow! Ankles!
7. Getting in and out of the car in a tight parking space - No problem!

The surgery was the best adult decision I’ve ever made for myself.  It was a selfish one (since I didn’t have insurance that covered it, that was $$ straight from our bank account - I'm really very forturnate that we were in a possition to do that), and I struggled with this decision before I did it. It felt like cheating, it felt like I was just too damn lazy to do it the “right way”, I felt like I was a failure and pathetic that I couldn’t just lose weight.

I had a long talk with some friends. I also spent the last 2 years struggling to lose 10lbs, while another friend of mine who got a lap-band lost 150lbs.  Was she a failure? Was she too lazy? Was she cheating?  No.

I didn’t think of her that way. I was jealous of her success, yes, but I was also a good deal more proud and happy for her.  Why wasn’t surgery an answer for me too?  As another good friend of mine sad to me, “You are not taking the easy way out, surgery and changing your life is going to be difficult.  Would you not take help if you had a medical condition that required surgery or medication?”

I finally gave myself permission to be unsuccessful at weight loss. I finally gave myself permission to seek help.  I wish that I had this done years ago.  Hindsight is 20/20, perhaps years of struggling and the up/down has given me an appreciation for what I have now.

One of the biggest differences post surgery is this has helped me stop using my body like a trash can. I can’t eat to solve my problems anymore; I can't fill myself up when I’m bored, tired or cranky.

I’m still a work in progress and I’m looking forward to what I have learned in the next month, and where I’ll be.  Exciting stuff!!

For fun, here is a picture of our dog enjoying life to the fullest. Kind of how I feel today.

Hump Day

Wednesday - Hump day.   I really feel like I need to get over this hump of the 271's.   Blarg.

Weigh In this morning: 270.6.   up again a little.   I'm trying to focus on the overall trend, but its hard. 

Squats and benchpress last night. I could feel my abs were weak and sore still from surgery. I have a couple of light exercises to try out and get them firing again.  The rest of the workout was good - my back is a little sore today.  Thankfully I have a chiro appointment at lunch today, so that should work out all the kinks.

I just finished my bike this morning. 5.26miles, 175calories burned, 25min done.  I pushed a little harder today, and started at level 5 for 5min, then 6 for 5min, then 7 until the last min... back down to 5.

Time for a shower and to head to the office, but before that. Here is today's meal plan:

Wednesday
food	amount	Calories	Fat	Carbs	Protein
EAS lite vanilla protein shake	1	110	3	4	17
Coffee & creams (2)	1 cup	40	3	3.5	0.5
Noosa Raspberry yogurt	4oz	130	6	14	9
deviled egg (halves)	2	86	9.25	1.3	6.3
Turkey mini meatloaf	1	140	7	4.5	14
Laughing Cow - swiss	1	35	1.5	1	2
Cottage Cheese	1/2c	90	2.5	0	12
Salmon	4oz	240	12	0	30
Plain grits	1	100	0	21	2
skim milk	1/2c	45	0.3	6	4.5
Totals		1016	44.55	55.3	97.3

YES!

Well , I must have had more water yesterday then I thought.  Had a good morning movement, and my weight is down! FINALLY!

Weight in - 270lbs

YAY!

I finally picked up the extra pants that my friend has shrunk out of.  All of them are size 18 and 20 (She is now down to a 14).

They looked... IMPOSSIBLY small.  The mind plays such tricks.  All the 20's fit well, apart from one pair of jeans.  The dress pants are 18's and all have some spandex in them, so they do up, and look good in the leg, but are a little tight in the middle.

By a little tight in the middle, I mean - how all my pants use to fit on me when they were stretchy and size 24. 

Unbelievable. It was hard to imagine pants that look like that going around me. But they did. 

Today was a non-bike day.  I have a weight session tonight, squats and I think that I'm going to give some bench press a shot as well.   See how the abs are healing up and flexing.

Meat! Its on the menu

I'm officially into Phase 3 - soft foods - as of this past weekend. Which isn't too much different from the pureed foods, other than I get to add in some cooked ground meat (YES!) and I'm still not on raw veggies yet. Chewing went well today, and I ate at a good pace.

My protein intake has shot up a good 10 - 15g a day with that! Enjoying it for what its worth!

Water today started good and dropped way the hell off. I'm sitting here thinking... yeah, that didn't go well. I think maybe 12oz in the workday. Frak. Tomorrow on the scale is going to suck, but that's my fault. I can't just look at the water sitting there, I have to drink it!

Today was a little light on food, I forgot to add protein powder into my pumpkin shake, so thats 9g of protein I'm missing today.  However, I think I'm doing pretty good!  And for a visual change of pace, here is a little clip of my food spreadsheet and what I ate today:

	Nov-12
food	amount	Calories	Fat	Carbs	Protein
Noosa Raspberry yogurt	4oz	130	6	14	9
Coffee & creams (2)	1 cup	40	3	3.5	0.5
Cream o Wheat - Maple	1 pack	130	0	28	2
skim milk	1/2c	45	0.3	6	4.5
deviled egg (halves)	2	86	9.25	1.3	6.3
Turkey mini meatloaf	1 (4oz)	140	7	4.5	14
Cottage Cheese	1/2c	90	2.5	0	12
Pumpkin shake (milk only)	1	147	0.8	25.5	9.7
Acorn Squash	1/2c	57	0	15	1
Turkey mini meatloaf	1 (4oz)	140	7	4.5	14
Yellow Mustard	2T	2	0	0	0
Totals		1007	35.85	102.3	73

Holding Steady!

Weigh in – 271. yep... holding steady.

Morning bike, (helped along with some Peter Gabriel tunes, one of my fav's):  

• 25 min
• 5.05miles
• 157calories
• Level 5

Not too bad - 5min miles.  I was comfortable, a little sweaty at the end.  I am going to have to start pushing harder, or at least turning up the level.

Water – already have 1/2L in me!  Aiming for 2.5 today min

I slept great last night (I love crisp freshly laundered sheets; that always makes my sleep better). I’m feeling positive, even though the scale isn’t moving.  

Getting it done at the office already, enough so that I have time to post up this short note.

Happy Monday!