May 2104 Monthly Recap

May is done and in the books.  

It was a 0 sum month for me, which all in all is a success.  Lots of bouncing around and not following the rules:

Lots of carbs
Lots of Sugar
Not enough water
Not enough sleep

The numbers:

May 1- 236.4

May 2- 234
May 3 - 234.4
May 4- 234.4
May 5 - 236
May 6 - 236
May 7 - 237
May 8 - 236.8
May 10 - 235
May 11 - 235.2
May 12 - 234.8
May 13 - 235.2
May 14 - 234
May 15 - 233.4
May 16 - 233.8
May 17 - 233
May 18 - 234
May 19 - 234
May 21 - 236.2
May 25 - 235.5
May 26 - 236.6
May 27 - 237
May 28 - 236.6
May 29 - 235.8
May 30 - 237
May 31 - 236.4

June - Total Lost - 0lbs
Overall Lost  - 64.6lbs

This one hurts. I'm going to have to change my tracker from 67lost to 64 lost.  :(   Let that be a lesson to me!! 

I would say that June was full of compliance and excuses.  Once I started back on my water, I saw some change.  As well - I stated back to the gym again. Always a good thing. 

Despite this lull in progress, I'm quietly enthusiastic about June.   I have my 2 week trip to Iceland starting on the 28th.  This time I am at a weight were Iam allowed to ride the Icelandic horses!!!  So I'm super enthused about that.  As well as all the rest of the walking and hiking that we will be doing.  I can't wait.

June at work is going to suck. But... I've decided that no matter what. I'm getting my water in.  That is the MINIMUM that I will do for myself.

Another boring monthly update, but... it comes and goes in swings.  

April 2014 Monthly Recap

Monthly Recap -  RAWR Edition

Pounds Gained this month – 2.4

Pounds lost overall – 64.6

Month by the numbers.

Mar 31 - 234
Apr 1 - 234
Apr 2 - 233
Apr 3 - 232.6
Apr 4 - 233.2
Apr 5 - 233.4
Apr 6 - 232.2
Apr 7 - 232.2
Apr 8 - 232.8
Apr 9 - 233.2
Apr 10 - 232.8
Apr 11 - 234.8
Apr 12 - 235.2
Apr 13 - 234
Apr 14 - 232.4
Apr 15 - 232.8
Apr 16 - 233.4
Apr 17 - 235.8
Apr 18 - 236
Apr 19 - 236
Apr 20 - 236.2
Apr 21 - 235
Apr 22 - 235.2
Apr 23 - 235.8
Apr 24 - 235.8
Apr 25 - 237.2
Apr 26 - 237.2
Apr 27 - 236.6
Apr 28 - 235.2
Apr 29 - 236.2
Apr 30 - 236.4

 

 

Well, I really let that one go at the end here.  There must be a correlation between me setting a goal and me FAILING in the complete opposite direction of said goal.  I literally gained for six straight days the day after I said I wanted to see 229 on the scale this month.  

Expecting things of myself is dangerous apparently.   Honestly, just wandering along being happy with what I’m doing is much better. 

Of course, I also let go the triad of evil:

 

1.       Stopped drinking enough water
2.       Stopped tracking my food
3.       Started eating out more

Accompanied with poor sleep, work stress, and a general lack of self-control and boom.  Back up in the mid/high 230’s. 

 

I also had a lot of poor self-talk – the old ugly “YOU DESERVE THESE TREATS” reared its head. Nothing good ever comes from that.

 

So, its back on the wagon.  I’ve not started tracking food yet, but I’m taking steps and gawds knows, if I set anything too high I’m just going to lay down and not get anywhere.  Step one has been – TAKE A DAMN LUNCH.  Which I’ve done, but I already had a snickers bar today.  *SIGH*  

 

Also – get on top of water.  I’ve had puffy swollen feet for half a month now.  It’s all because I’m down on my water and my body is suffering from it. 

 

Today’s REAL emergency was I took a shirt off the hanger to wear to work today... and put it back because it was slightly tight at the start of the month – I couldn’t even bear to try it on and see how my belly has filled in again.  Damn it – 2lbs does really make a difference.

 

Time to get back on track. 

March Monthly Recap 2014

March is done... hard to believe!

This has been an amazing month for me for success, however this morning’s weigh in was slightly up. HOWEVER, I'm going to NOT let it bother me, as I didn't sleep well last night, had a late dinner, and get my morning constitutional in before weigh in.

In March I had 6 "new lows" recorded!  I couldn't be happier that I ended the month on one of those too.  234 is the lowest month end recorded weigh-in thus far. 

Happy Dance.

Feb 28 - 236.8 (-65lbs)
Mar 1 - 237.6
Mar 3 - 236.4
Mar 4 - 237.2
Mar 5 - 238
Mar 6 - 237.4
Mar 7 - 236.2
Mar 8 - 236 *
Mar 9 - 234 *
Mar 10 - 233.2 *
Mar 11 - 234
Mar 12 - 232.8*
Mar 13 - 233
Mar 14 - 233
Mar 15 - 232.4 *
Mar 16 - 232.6
Mar 17 - 232.6
Mar 18 - 232 *

Mar 19 - 233.4
Mar 20 - 234
Mar 21 - 232.8
Mar 22 - 232.8
Mar 23 - 232.4
Mar 24 -232.8
Mar 25 - 233
Mar 26 - 233.4
Mar 27 - 233.2
Mar 28 - 233

Mar 29 - 232.2

Mar 30 - 232.6

Mar 31 - 234**new low month end weigh in

Total lbs lost in March: 2.8lbs

Total lbs lost overall: 67lbs

 

 

 

I’ve been sick, had gallbladder surgery, root canal, and have not done any working out - but I also spent almost all of March recording everything that I ate on the MFP ap, and thinking about getting in more and more water and eating a lot of protein.   

 

The ap has really made a difference in my awareness to what I’m eating.  I still have treats, I still splurge on things, but just less frequently… AND I’m aware of them so I don't just indulge indulge indulge - which has been a big issue for me.

 

The NSV's this month:

 

1. bought regular size 18 pants in a regular women's department!  Almost into the 16's.

2. Solid size 16 up top/XL regular and the occasional L

3. new bras - 38DD

4. Went to a clothing swap yesterday. Actually fit into a couple of things!!  It was pretty awesome.

 

Not a very long post this morning, as I have work to get to, but I certainly am excited about my progress and looking forward to continued success in April.

September 2013 Recap

The month by numbers:

Aug 31 - 239

Sept 1 - 238.6

Sept 2 - 238.0

Sept 3 - 238.2

Sept 4 - 238.8

Sept 5 - 239.2

Sept 6 - 240.2

Sept 7 - 240.6

Sept 8 - 238.6

Sept 9 - 238.2

Sept 10 - 240.2

Sept 11 - 239.8

Sept 12 - 241.0

Sept 13 - 240.8

Sept 14 - 240.2

Sept 16 - 238.8

Sept 17 - 240.6

Sept 18 - 240.4

Sept 19 - 239.2

Sept 20 - 239.8

Sept 21 - 240.2

Sept 22 - 239.2

Sept 23 - 239.4

Sept 24 - 238.8

Sept 25 - 238.8

Sept 26 - 239.4

Sept 27 - 238.8

Sept 28 - 238.6

Sept 29 - 239.0

Sept 30 - 238.6

Total Lost in September: .4lbs
Total Lost overall: 62.4lbs

September has FLOWN by, and I seriously can't believe that this month is over. 

As you can see, I'm still struggling in the 238 region.   I spent some time this morning reading over my previous monthly posts and reflecting.  I have to make some changes, they are going to happen, but as usual - life is a big excuse for me. 

However, things are on the up and up:

• The house s 95% done for cleaning, painting, rennos and I've not got a lot more task to get done. Light painting, hanging more pictures. Easy stuff.
• The garage apt is 95% done and we have it rented out.  The tenant is coming over tonight to get key, drop off a check and she is moving in next weekend.
• Work is going well - its busy (but its never not going to be), however I've just passed the 6 month mark there and things are starting to get easier.  I'm more familiar with the role, the duties and the processes.  That feels good.
• I'm 60+ pounds lighter than I was last year... and it is coming up on a year next month.  I've not spent much time thinking about all the great things that I've accomplished, how much better my life is and focusing on the good.  Which I'm going to do.

As to This month: 

There were some improvements that need to be noted: 

1. I tried on my leather boots and got one more button done up on the side! YAY! 
2. I bought a shirt at Old Navy that was.... A LARGE!!!!  LARGE!  woot
3. My bras are all on the tightest set of loops. Time to get a few new ones of those too.  That will mean that I'm back into a 38inch band.
4. We had friends over that hadn't seem me in a year and they were shocked/impressed.
5. All my pants are getting too baggy, but I'm going to wait another month for "winter" to get some new ones.
6. I bought some new shoes this weekend as well, and was back down a 1/2 size to a full size.  Which is great, because I was up to a tight 11, and now I have a few 10's and 10.5's that are fitting.
7. I made and packed up lunches for this week, getting in my protein and water.

Goals:
I purchased a yoga-mat yesterday. This is my goal for October is to get up every morning and do 10 - 30 situps and pushups. Every morning. Roll out, get on the mat. Nude if I have to, and do crunches and pushups until I can't anymore.

My other goal this month is to get to bed before midnight. There is no way that I'll be able to get out of bed to do said pushups if I am not getting at least 7 - 8 hour of sleep. So... the TV is going to have to be given a break.

Okay.  Thats it!  11 months in, October 15th will be one year since my surgery and all those amazing changes... but I'll wait until next month to talk about those!  :)

Happy Monday!

August 2013 Recap

Here are the numbers:

July 31 – 239
Aug 1 -239.8
Aug 2 - 239.8
Aug 3 - 239.8
Aug 4 - 238.8
Aug 10 - 241.6
Aug 11 - 241.0
Aug 12 - 241.6
Aug 13 - 241.4
Aug 14 - 241.4
Aug 15 - 242.8
Aug 16 - 242.0
Aug 17 - 243.2
Aug 18 - 243.2
Aug 19 - 242.2
Aug 21 - 242.2
Aug 22 - 240.4
Aug 23 - 240.4
Aug 24 - 241.4
Aug 25 - 239.8
Aug 26 - 240.8
Aug 27 - 240.4
Aug 28 - 240.8
Aug 29 - 241.4
Aug 31 - 239.0

Total pounds lost in August – 0.0

Total pounds lost overall – 62

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

This month has not been great for eating and water. I have been overindulging in snacks, sodas (in limited, but regular quanities) and I’ve been giving myself a lot of excuses that I like to use to make myself feel better about it.  I also had some very strange period activity – which was stress related (it was 8 days late and stayed for 4 days longer than usual – not preggers!). 

I was “hoping” that I would break into the lower 230’s this last month, but hoping is not going to get me there. Moving more, eating right, and drinking my water is going to get me there.  Hoping is going to get me wallowing around at the same weight I am right now thinking about my smaller clothes and how much I want to wear them, while I eat on the sofa and watch BBC America and HGTV.  Not good.

Lots of change happened externally this month.

 

Kitchen renno completed

House painted

Moved in

Unpacking

Budget season (Yuck!!)

This last weekend I spent a good 3 hours a day up in the garage apt cleaning, scrubbing and washing it out.

Things are going to settle down, and the Houston summer heat is starting to die down a little.  Soon I’ll be happily working in the yard and drinking my coffee on the veranda in the mornings.  I can’t wait.

I do feel that my life right now is running from one fire to the next in a panic. Stomping it out to a manageable level – then running to the next fire and stomping on it, only to have to move onto the next fire and then back to  the first one again.   Spinning my wheels I guess.   I know that I need to start adding in exercise to my life, but I’m not making time for it.  There is time for it – but I’m not getting it onto my priority list.  That has to change.

I have to do more than say I need to change. I need to actually make change happen.  I need to find a way to do that. I’m not partially positive about it happening in this moment. But.. I still want to say I need to do it, so that one day… I actually will.  

YOU NEED TO MAKE CHANGES

Okay, back to my regularly scheduled update.

Progress is still being made.  My weight hasn’t changed too much (Zero balance for the month), but my clothing is fitting differently.  My smaller clothes are starting to slip on easier, I made it into my goal jacket from 3 years ago! And my regularly worn clothes are starting to look downright baggy. 

Baby steps. 

Right, speaking of – work is still a priority – as a short week is really a work deferral program and I have a lot of stuff to catch up on. Starting with the 40 emails that came in while I was out at lunch. 

July 2013 Recap

Its been in interesting month.. Here are the numbers: 

June 30 - 241.2
July 1 - 241.0
July 2 - 240.8
July 3 - 239.8
July 4 - 240.8
July 5 - 241

July 6 - 241.6

July 7 - 241.6

July 8 - 240.6

July 9 - 240.2

July 10 - 240.4

July 11 - 239.4

July 12 - 239.6

July 13 - 239.4

July 14 - 240.4

July 15 - 240.4

July 16 - 241.2

July 17 - 241.2

July 18 - 240.8

July 20 - 239.8

July 21 - 239.0

July 22 - 239.8

July 23 - 239.8

July 24 - 240.2

July 25 - 239.6

July 26 - 237.2

July 27 - 236.6

July 28 - 238.0

July 29 - 237.6

July 30 - 237.6

July 31 - 239

Total pounds lost in July - 2.2

Total pounds lost overall - 62

 

 

 

This month I stopped "coasting" with food.  I'm on a bounce up at the moment, but I've been struggling with sleep and water the last few days (as the husband was on call this week and was up every morning at 2 - 4 on the phone and laptop, so I was not getting good sleep).

 

However, I have renewed my efforts with food. I had been eating because, well... because I could. Not because I was hungry or that I hadn't had any food for 5 hours... I was eating because food fit in there.  Which, is not the way to use the sleeve.  It will hold whatever you stick in there.

 

I was happy to start seeing more numbers in the 230's.  It has given me a renewed sense of purpose. 

 

I had my nine month check up with my surgeon.  He wasn't "disappointed" but he wasn't pleased either. And judging by the number of excuses that cam involuntarily shooting out of my mouth, neither am I.

 

I also turned 39 this month, and was at 236.6.  A bare 3lbs away from my college weight!!  A massive realization for me.  That... this is really going to happen.  I am really going to finally be a manageable weight... for real.  Really for real.  

 

This month I also found out a friend is going to not be beating cancer. His attitude and efforts in his life have given me a chance to reflect on mine, and I find it lacking.  I need to grab hold of the good things and make them sweeter by looking at them in a new light. 

 

Heres a happy for me... look at all this progress!!!!

 

 

June 2013 Recap

June by the numbers:

May 31 - 241.2
June 4 - 242.6
June 5 - 243.6
June 6 - 244.0
June 7 - 244.6
June 8 - 244.6
June 9 - 244
June 10 - 245
June 11 - 244.8
June 12 - 244.6
June 13 - 243.6
June 14 - 243

June 15 - 244.6

June 16 - 243.4

June 18 -243.2

June 19 - 243.2

June 20 - 243.0

June 21 - 242.4

June 22 - 242.0

June 24 - 241.0

June 25 - 241.2

June 26 - 240.8

June 27 - 240.8

June 28 - 241.2

June 29 - 242.0

June 30 - 241.2

 

Total pounds lost in June - 0

Total pounds lost overall - 59.8 (exactly the same as last month)

 

 

 

June was a lot of work emotionally. 

 

Weight wise I was up down up down ARG. That is hard on a girl who has been a lifetime dieter, BUT~!!!!  BUT, the happy news is that even though I did not lose anything in terms of pounds this month, everyone that has seen me thinks that I look smaller.   So there are still changes happening.   Not on the scale (which is where it is easier and more satisfyingly measurable), but it is still happening.

 

I'm solidly into a normal XL. I bought a shirt off the rack at Neman Marcus his weekend (Massive sale at the off-rack store, nothing better then getting a $100+ shirt for $25.00!).

 

This month I did struggle with emotional eating, binging and some sabotage eating.  I didn't post a lot, and I know that I should have more. I need to document these things better so at the end of the month when it comes down to this, I can look back and see why.  I have to look back and remember, but at least there is this.

 

I made a significant number of poor choices and then last week had a self imposed ban on eating out. Which I managed until Friday night.

 

I guess the theme of June is"work in progress".

 

July I have my 8 month follow up with my surgery doc.  He wanted me to be at 210, which is NOT going to happen of course, but... then again. Whenever someone challenges me to do something that I , I make it a personal goal to fail and show them.  *sigh*. 

 

I could work harder

I could eat better

I could do more

 

But I have not.  I have only done what I have done.  I don't know how I feel about that.  I have the desire to be an over achiever, but then the demands and rigors of life crop up and I don't make more time for these things.   Which... is how I got up to over 300lbs in the first place.

 

I think the one thing that I want to really work on is not eating to max capacity.  This is my worst habit. I eat until I can't (also how I got to over 300lbs).  I need to wait to feel actual hunger before eating.  Measure my food out again, and eat slower.   Perhaps these should be my goals for July.

May 2013 Recap

May recap

The Numbers:

April 30 - 245.6
May 1 - 246.4
May 2 - 246.8
May 3 - 246.2
May 4 - 246.6
May 6 - 246
May 8 - 245

May 9 - 243.2

May 10 - 243.8

May 11 - 243.8

May 12 - 244.4

May 13 - 245.2

May 14 - 245.8

May 15 - 246.8

May 16 - 245.8

May 17 - 245.4

May 18 - 244

May 19 - 244.4

May 20 - 243.2

May 21 - 243.2

May 22 - 242.6

May 23 - 243.2

May 24 - 242.8

May 25 - 242.4

May 26 - 242

May 27 - 241.2

May 28 - 241.2

May 29 - 240.8 (-60lbs)

May 30 - 240.6
May 31 – 241.2

Pounds lost in May: 4.4

Pounds lost overall: 59.8

May has been an interesting month. I started it out with an injury and a massive up/down and stalling out.  Mid-month, I was feeling better and made a BIG change in the amount of water that I was getting in a day.  This really helped turn this month around in terms of losing weight, and honestly – feeling better.  I did a really bad job of water yesterday – so todays “up” weigh in was not too big a surprise to me.  But, I know I’m on track right now, and that’s a good feeling.  Very positive!!

I’m still plagued with hip/groin issues.  I fly out to WI for work tonight and am back on Monday night. I’m a little scared that I might be setting myself up for a disaster if I push too hard.  So I have my foam roller packed, and my lacrosse ball – that I use to do massage on the big muscles – i.e. sitting on that ball to get my glutes and hams rubbed out from any tightness that might move back into the groin.

In terms of successes… I’ve not changed a size down yet in my clothing, but everything that I have fits much better. My XL shirts are comfortable and getting a little tiny bit loose.  I feel more comfortable in them and that is SUCCESS!  I’ll take it.  I actually shopped in 0ld Nvy and fit very nicely into the XL’s.  I can see that I’ll be a size L in there quite soon.  Exciting stuff.

I also hit my -60lbs goal this month (okay – its 59.8, but as I said in my other post – I’ll take it!).  

April 2013 Recap

Monthly Recap:

Pounds lost in April – 1.8lbs

Pounds lost overall – 55.4

March 31 - 247.4
April 2 - 247.6
April 3 - 247.4
April 4 - 247
April 5 - 246
April 7 - 247
April 8 - 247.4
April 9 - 246
April 10 - 247.4
April 11 - 248.4
April 12 - 247.6
April 13 - 248.6
April 14 - 247.2
April 15 - 245.8
April 16 - 245.8
April 17 - 246.2
April 18 - 244.4
April 19 - 245.6
April 20 - 245.6
April 21 - 245.4
April 22 - 247.6
April 23 - 247.2
April 24 - 245.8
April 25 - 245.2
April 26 - 247
April 27 - 247.2
April 28 - 246.6
April 29 - 246
April 30 - 245.6

Lackluster, is what I would use to describe this month, well, actually my efforts this month.  

Honestly, this month has sucked, I’ve been sick, stressed, and overworked, HOWEVER that is no excuse for sitting on the sofa and stuffing my face while crying, which is pretty much what I’ve done all month.  All the while moaning about how hard it is to myself, my husband and on this blog. Boo fricken Hoo. 

Wanting to do better and doing better are two different things.  I want to do better....before surgery I wanted to do better too… but I didn’t DO anything.  That is where I need to fix me.  Turning thought into action.

So instead of a giant post about all the things that didn't do and should do – I’m going to spend June “doing” something about it.   I want to be in the 230’s at the end of June and I AM going to make that happen.

March 2013 Recap (finally)

Okay - I have started this post 3 times, and today I'm going to do it. 

Actually, its lucky that work has been so crazy, because all the first posts that I started are so bloody negative that I can't stand to even use a little bit of them.

Was March a great month? Did I pull up my socks and get on the bike?  Did I eat right all the time and not snack and have sugar for meals?

The answer to all of those is no. However, that doesn't make me a bad human being, it just makes me human. I did some of those things, for a little bit, but certainly, I have to get my ducks in a row and do them all.

The sleeve is a tool, and if I want to use that tool, its there for me.  OR, I can go against the tool, make life uncomfortable (physically and emotionally every morning on the scale) and generally fight against the flow for all its worth... then complain bitterly when it doesn't work out. Yeah... that's the ticket.

So, that was March.  I had a bad Feb. Complained about that. Didn't make ANY changes, in fact, I did worse.  Then I wanted to complain about that.  Brilliant!! 

Today, I'm feeling more positive.  Last night I had a little come to jebuz meeting with myself and here we are today.

Okay - the numbers:

Pounds lost in March: 3.6
Total lost overall: 53.6

Feb 28 - 251.0 (-50lbs!)
March 1 - 249.6
March 2 - 249.4
March 3 - 247.4
March 4 - 248.4
March 5 - 248.8
March 6 - 248
March 7 - 247.6
March 8 - 248.6
March 9 - 248
March 10 -248
March 11 - 248.4
March 12 - 249.4
March 13 - 249.2
March 14 - 249.2
March 15 - 249.6
March 16 - 249.8
March 17 - 249.8
March 18 - 247.6
March 19 - 248.4
March 20 - 248.2
March 21 - 247.6
March 23 - 247.6
March 24 - 246.6
March 25 - 245.8 (-55lbs) March 26 - 246.6
March 27 - 246
March 28 - 246.2
March 29 - 246.4
March 30 - 246.6
March 31 - 247.4

Despite the upswing in the bottom of the month, I did manage to hit another goal weigh of -55lbs.  It was only for a day, but I'm confident that I'll be getting back there soon.

Today I started taking pictures of the food I am eating (will post those later), and frankly it has increased my awareness of what was going in by 100%.  Also, it has made me start listening to my fullness level and sort of jarred me awake to what I've been putting in my mouth.  I had lunch and started some sweet-seeking behaviors... but then I realized, that I was actually full. 

It's been an eye opener for the day.  Here's to a better April.

February 2013 Recap (GOAL!!!)

February, the longest-shortest month of the year.

It was a really hard one for me. Really hard. If I could sum this month up in a word, that word is STRESS.  However As of TODAY....

I finally hit my next major milestone. -50lbs!!   *SOUNDS THE TRUMPETS*  

Weigh In this morning was 251lbs.  This means that I ended Feb just like I did in Jan – with another new low.  YAY!   That has put the happy back in my step after a long and horrible month. 

The numbers:

Jan 31 - 253.2
Feb 1 - 252.8
Feb 2 - 253.8
Feb 3 - 253.6
Feb 4 - 252.8
Feb 5 - 252.4
Feb 6 - 252.6
Feb 7 - 252.8
Feb 8 - 252.2
Feb 9 - 252.2
Feb 10 - 252.4
Feb 11 - 253.8
Feb 12 - 253.4
Feb 13 - 253.8
Feb 14 - 252.6
Feb 15 - 252.6
Feb 16 - 252.2
Feb 18 - 252.0
Feb 19 - 251.4
Feb 20 - 251.4
Feb 21 - 252.2
Feb 22 - 252.2
Feb 25 - 252.6
Feb 26 - 252.8
Feb 27 - 251.8

Feb 28 – 251.0

Pounds lost in Feb – 2.2

Pounds lost Overall – 50

While I’m not particularly impressed with my numbers this month -  2.2lbs is more along the lines of what I have lost in a week.  I’m still pleased that I did it. It was difficult to stay positive, and to keep going, but I did. 

I went to yoga last night, I didn’t want to, I had a million excuses that I let roll around as I got changed, grabbed water and got in the car.  It was hard, but I need to keep at it.  Its good practice to make myself do something that I don’t want to.

February has been a month of struggles, so I guess it taught me that I can make it though anything if I take it a step at a time!

January Recap

The January recap is here!  I can't believe that it has been 3.5months since surgery.  Today is especially nice as I hit a new exciting low and am feeling great.

January by the numbers:

Dec 31 - 260.2

Jan 1 - 260

Jan 2 - 260

Jan 3 - 260

Jan 4 - 259

Jan 5 - 258.2

Jan 6 - 258.6

Jan 7 - 257.8

Jan 8 - 258.6

Jan 9 - 258.6

Jan 10 - 257.8

Jan 11 - 256.6

Jan 12 - 256 (-45lbs)

Jan 13 - 256.8

Jan 14 - 257.8

Jan 15 - 258

Jan 16 257.8

Jan 17 - 256

Jan 18 - 256.6

Jan 19 - 255.8

Jan 20 - 255.6

Jan 21 - 255.8

Jan 22 - 254.8

Jan 23 - 255.4

Jan 24 - 256.4

Jan 25 - 255.6

Jan 26 - 255.6

Jan 27 - 254.8

Jan 28 - 255.2

Jan 29 - 254.4

Jan 30 - 254

Jan 31 - 253.2

Pounds lost in January - 7
Pounds lost overall - 47.8

Fraking WOW!!!! I AM SO HAPPY!  Here is the graph. I had some major up and downs, but as I keep going I'm learning to take them for what they are - reminders to drink more water and eat better foods!

I hit a big milestone this month - losing 45lbs.  People at work are starting to really take note and a few of them are asking me about it.  Which can get uncomfortable, but I tell them all the same stuff.

1.  stop drinking with your meals
2.  measure everything you eat
3.  count your calories
4.  get moving
5.  drink more water

It's all the stuff that I'm doing, without me disclosing that I have had surgical assistance with portion sizes.

I am nearly out of my plus sized cloths for good. Today I bought a dress today at J.Jill in XL and there was room in it.  It was NOT stretched to its maximum structural capacity that bordered on obscene.  This dress actually fits and looks great.  I will get some spanxy-things to help with the lumpies, but I'm really pleased and feeling even... *gasp* inspired.  

I keep saying that I'm going to get on my bike in the mornings and this has NOT happened yet.  February is my month. Its going to happen.

  

December Recap

December has come and gone in a flash! 

I've had some great moments in December.   I hit my goal of 40lbs lost and I lost a total of 5lbs this month.  Not my best effort, there was a lot of snacking on Christmasy type treats and sweets.

December by the Numbers:

Nov 30 - 265.2 Dec 1 - 264.6
Dec 2 - 263.8
Dec 3 - 264.6
Dec 4 - 265.2
Dec 5 - 264.6
Dec 6 - 264
Dec 7 - 264
Dec 8 - 264
Dec 9 - 263.8
Dec 10 - 263.4
Dec 11 - 262.4
Dec 12 - 262
Dec 13 - 260.6 (-40lbs)
Dec 17 - 261.2
Dec 18 - 260.6
Dec 19 - 260.4
Dec 20 - 260.8
Dec 21 - 261.8
Dec 22 - 260.4
Dec 23 - 260.2
Dec 24 - 259.8
Dec 25 - 259.8
Dec 26 - 260.0
Dec 27 - 260.0
Dec 28 - 259.8
Dec 29 - 260.6
Dec 30 - 259.2
Dec 31 - 260.2

Total lost in December: 5lbs
Total lost: 40.8lbs

This month has had a LOT of up and down, and not much in the way of down in the second half of the month.  I'm trying to not worry about it too much, because there is a lot of great stuff that happened as well as the holidays.  

Yesterday I had a tough moment that I've been stewing on.  One of the few people that I've told about my surgery made a pointed comment. I think she is trying to encourage and be supportive, but its really hit me in the guts.

I told her that I had lost 5-6lbs this month, to which she replied,  "that's not enough, I lost that with just exercise this month".

Ouch.

I think it hurts because its mostly true.  This month is not great. I can try harder: I have not been tracking food, I have been sitting around, I have not been getting enough water... I need to change those things.  But I'm also struggling with being HAPPY about 5lbs.  I mean. I would have been lucky to have gained ONLY 5 over Christmas before.  So I don't know, ug. This is not how I wanted to close out the year.

5lbs is 1.25lbs a week - I would like to think that is pretty stellar progress - slow, steady, nothing too crazy.  However, 2013 I do HAVE TO start back biking, my morning exercise is needed, for many reason!  Fitness, mental health and physical condition.

November Recap

November has been a fantastic month for many things!

Firstly, I hit 2 goal weights. -10% body weight and -35lbs. 

Secondly, it was an exceptional month of learning:

The begining of the month was painfully slow and up/down with my weight.   I had a couple of crisis moments thinking that I had already stopped losing and this was it.   But I kept my focus, didn't get out of control (i.e.: ice cream eating and crying about being fat), and then mid way through the month, I started seeing the numbers heading down.  This can be attributed mostly to the magic elixir water.

Its a process, I have to keep on it.  Which can be hard for someone who was a yo-yo dieter and a habitual start-quit-restart'er.

Here are the November numbers:

Oct 31 - 271.8
Nov 1 - 271.6
Nov 2 - 272
Nov 3 - 271 (down 10% body weight -30lbs!!)
Nov 4 - 270.8
Nov 5 - 270
Nov 6 - 270.6
Nov 7 - 270.8
Nov 8 - 271.4
Nov 9 - 270.8
Nov 10 - 271
Nov 11 - 271
Nov 12 - 271
Nov 13 - 270
Nov 14 - 270.6
Nov 15 - 269.4 (1 month)
Nov 16 - 270.8
Nov 17 - 270.6
Nov 18 - 269.6
Nov 19 - 269.4
Nov 20 - 268.4
Nov 21 - 268.6
Nov 22 - 267.8
Nov 25 - 266.8
Nov 26 - 267.6
Nov 27 - 266.8
Nov 28 - 265.2
Nov 29 - 264.8 (-35lb goal!!)
Nov 30 - 265.2

Total lost in November: 6.6lbs
Total lost: 35.8lbs

Which leads me to my next discovery... I can't do math.   -35lb goal was at 266lbs, not 265lbs.  Okay - its a single pound, so not that big a deal, but... way to go mathlete!  :)

All in all a great month. I'm looking forward to some similar progress in the months to come.

Weight loss Graph for November:

October Recap

Here is my weight loss recap for October, so that I don't have to keep every date on my sidebar, just the special ones!

Oct 7 - 301 - Starting weight
Oct 15 - 295 (surgery day)
Oct 19 - 287
Oct 20 - 283
Oct 21 - 281.8
Oct 22 - 280.4
Oct 23 - 278.4
Oct 24 - 276.4 (-25lbs lost!)
Oct 25 - 275.4
Oct 26 - 273.8
Oct 27 - 272.8
Oct 28 - 272.6
Oct 29 - 272
Oct 30 - 272
Oct 31 - 271.8
Starting weight: 301
October loss: 29.2lbs