I had Vertical Sleeve Gastric Surgery in October 2012, and this is my journey to push the fat girl aside and start living life without fear of lawn chairs,
the middle seat, clothing shops and high heels. Among other things.


MEASURE TWICE - EAT ONCE!

Monday, July 1, 2013

June 2013 Recap

June by the numbers:

May 31 - 241.2
June 4 - 242.6
June 5 - 243.6
June 6 - 244.0
June 7 - 244.6
June 8 - 244.6
June 9 - 244
June 10 - 245
June 11 - 244.8
June 12 - 244.6
June 13 - 243.6
June 14 - 243
June 15 - 244.6
June 16 - 243.4
June 18 -243.2
June 19 - 243.2
June 20 - 243.0
June 21 - 242.4
June 22 - 242.0
June 24 - 241.0
June 25 - 241.2
June 26 - 240.8
June 27 - 240.8
June 28 - 241.2
June 29 - 242.0
June 30 - 241.2
 
Total pounds lost in June - 0
Total pounds lost overall - 59.8 (exactly the same as last month)
 
 
 
June was a lot of work emotionally. 
 
Weight wise I was up down up down ARG. That is hard on a girl who has been a lifetime dieter, BUT~!!!!  BUT, the happy news is that even though I did not lose anything in terms of pounds this month, everyone that has seen me thinks that I look smaller.   So there are still changes happening.   Not on the scale (which is where it is easier and more satisfyingly measurable), but it is still happening.
 
I'm solidly into a normal XL. I bought a shirt off the rack at Neman Marcus his weekend (Massive sale at the off-rack store, nothing better then getting a $100+ shirt for $25.00!).
 
This month I did struggle with emotional eating, binging and some sabotage eating.  I didn't post a lot, and I know that I should have more. I need to document these things better so at the end of the month when it comes down to this, I can look back and see why.  I have to look back and remember, but at least there is this.
 
I made a significant number of poor choices and then last week had a self imposed ban on eating out. Which I managed until Friday night.
 
I guess the theme of June is"work in progress".
 
July I have my 8 month follow up with my surgery doc.  He wanted me to be at 210, which is NOT going to happen of course, but... then again. Whenever someone challenges me to do something that I , I make it a personal goal to fail and show them.  *sigh*. 
 
I could work harder
I could eat better
I could do more
 
But I have not.  I have only done what I have done.  I don't know how I feel about that.  I have the desire to be an over achiever, but then the demands and rigors of life crop up and I don't make more time for these things.   Which... is how I got up to over 300lbs in the first place.
 
I think the one thing that I want to really work on is not eating to max capacity.  This is my worst habit. I eat until I can't (also how I got to over 300lbs).  I need to wait to feel actual hunger before eating.  Measure my food out again, and eat slower.   Perhaps these should be my goals for July.

2 comments:

  1. I have the problem of desiring to be an over achiever and then letting everything else get in the way of that too. You're doing great. And like you said...even though you didn't lose any this month, people are noticing a difference anyway. Are you still doing pictures and measurements? Sometimes that helps too when the scale doesn't want to show us a victory. Just keep swimming... ;)

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    1. :) that is one of my favorite sayings!! Thank you for reminding me!!

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