2012 - I had Vertical Sleeve Gastric Surgery in October 2012, and this is my journey to push the fat girl aside and start living life without fear of lawn chairs, the middle seat, clothing shops and high heels. Among other things.

2017 - I'm preop for the Duodenal Switch procedure for my sleeve to help me get to goal weight....and to fix another hiatal hernia.

Tuesday, February 18, 2014


Perspective is one of those things that I find hard to have. Objective perspective, that is. I've spent a lifetime being really hard on myself, and I think that its nature to find faults and obsess over them.  The "grass is always greener" mentality, which can make us strive, but also does impair my vision of myself. 

So, I know when I have the moments that are the sun peeking through the clouds, that I have to mark them down.

I've been lifting weights now for just over 2 months 3x a week. I've been warming up on the bike and doing lots of god stretching. I've seen my weights number go up, the workouts are easier, I am certainly stronger. (YAY!), and lifting and my mobility is better.

Of course, in my "mind" - WEIGHT!!! is the thing that I track and WEIGHT is the be-all-end-all.  So its been hard to see the zero-sum game of the old up-down on the scale. 242 - 240lbs.

I still see FAT when I look in the mirror, so I just have to keep mentally working on it. However, I had a great NSV yesterday.   Which must be logged.

My Chiropractor said - Oh, I can see that you have lost weight again. Your legs have a noticeable change!  Which is always great, since she sees me in a different way, without judgement. 

I mentioned it last night to my weight lifting coach/buddy and he said - oh yeah - I can totally see a difference.  :)  

So last evening, while ruminating over this, and looking at my legs folded up on the couch, I started to notice it.  My "tight" pants were baggy, where I never noticed that before. The waistband actually gaped, instead of being taunt.

Today, I'm wearing my skinny pants (coldwater creek 16's) and they are not as tight as they were the last time I wore them.

Chalking this up to VICTORY!  I'm going to enjoy it too!


  1. That's awesome and definitely a victory! Way to go! My scale has been up for the past couple of months...higher than I want it to be. But I decided to put the scale back in the closet and just focus on building my endurance. Keep it up!

    1. As long as we are working on it, Right!! :)