Today I am not hungry.
Today I am feeling scared, stressed, nervous, tired, overloaded, guilty, and worried.
I am not hungry, and putting food in my mouth will not solve any of the other feelings that I'm having.
The interviews went well - they are making me an offer at the end of the week for the new job I applied/interviewed for.
I had to tell the two women that I work for yesterday that I was possibly leaving the department. That was hard. Really hard. I chickened out twice. I really hate to disappoint people, I hate putting myself first, I feel guilty for leaving, even though its best for me.
I'm also scared about the new job, more travel, more responsibility, more everything.... what if I can't do it, what if I do it badly, what if they don't like me.
Then I remind myself: I've never had a job I didn't do well, I'm a high performer, I get max bonus's, I get great reviews, and I always strive to do my best - this will be no different. I will put in the effort, I was the top candidate for a reason, they aren't stupid. I am going to be great.
So today I have to STOP feeding my feelings.