2012 - I had Vertical Sleeve Gastric Surgery in October 2012, and this is my journey to push the fat girl aside and start living life without fear of lawn chairs, the middle seat, clothing shops and high heels. Among other things.

2017 - I'm preop for the Duodenal Switch procedure for my sleeve to help me get to goal weight....and to fix another hiatal hernia.

Saturday, March 15, 2014

Mental struggles

Today Was another new low. 


It's really quite exciting!! 

Of course today I've eaten: a scone, a sausage & cheese kolache,  two slices of pizza, and four shortbread cookies. On top of scrambled eggs and toast for breakfast. 

I'm feeling terrible. Mentally. All this success and I still eat like shit. 

Baby steps. Baby steps. 

I took some pictures to see the progress. The last time I took pictures I was 236. Now I'm 232.4 and I think these pictures make me look heavier. 

Interesting choice of words I used there. "Make me look heavier". Technically I know I am lighter, my clothes fit better and I know I am smaller.  But the image on the camera is making me feel fatter.

Gawds. This weight thing is hard. 

Pic at 236.

Pic at 232.4


  1. You're so right that this weight thing is hard. You can be having such a great day and one moment ends it. I love the graph of how you've done with the weight. That's incredible progress!

  2. Congrats on the weight loss! Pictures are really hard to see the difference but sometimes it helps if you keep wearing the same thing.

    1. True! I also think its the angle. Feeling more positive today!!! :)