July 2013 Recap

Its been in interesting month.. Here are the numbers: 

June 30 - 241.2
July 1 - 241.0
July 2 - 240.8
July 3 - 239.8
July 4 - 240.8
July 5 - 241

July 6 - 241.6

July 7 - 241.6

July 8 - 240.6

July 9 - 240.2

July 10 - 240.4

July 11 - 239.4

July 12 - 239.6

July 13 - 239.4

July 14 - 240.4

July 15 - 240.4

July 16 - 241.2

July 17 - 241.2

July 18 - 240.8

July 20 - 239.8

July 21 - 239.0

July 22 - 239.8

July 23 - 239.8

July 24 - 240.2

July 25 - 239.6

July 26 - 237.2

July 27 - 236.6

July 28 - 238.0

July 29 - 237.6

July 30 - 237.6

July 31 - 239

Total pounds lost in July - 2.2

Total pounds lost overall - 62

 

 

 

This month I stopped "coasting" with food.  I'm on a bounce up at the moment, but I've been struggling with sleep and water the last few days (as the husband was on call this week and was up every morning at 2 - 4 on the phone and laptop, so I was not getting good sleep).

 

However, I have renewed my efforts with food. I had been eating because, well... because I could. Not because I was hungry or that I hadn't had any food for 5 hours... I was eating because food fit in there.  Which, is not the way to use the sleeve.  It will hold whatever you stick in there.

 

I was happy to start seeing more numbers in the 230's.  It has given me a renewed sense of purpose. 

 

I had my nine month check up with my surgeon.  He wasn't "disappointed" but he wasn't pleased either. And judging by the number of excuses that cam involuntarily shooting out of my mouth, neither am I.

 

I also turned 39 this month, and was at 236.6.  A bare 3lbs away from my college weight!!  A massive realization for me.  That... this is really going to happen.  I am really going to finally be a manageable weight... for real.  Really for real.  

 

This month I also found out a friend is going to not be beating cancer. His attitude and efforts in his life have given me a chance to reflect on mine, and I find it lacking.  I need to grab hold of the good things and make them sweeter by looking at them in a new light. 

 

Heres a happy for me... look at all this progress!!!!

 

 

Coincidence… I think not

Today is the day before my 39th birthday. I weighed in this morning at 236.6 pounds.

I distinctly remember Weighing 232 pounds in college. Not too shabby a birthday present for myself I would say!!

I've been making a lot of better choices over the last few days. In doing so, I've been thinking about my friend- who has had the entire lower left side of his face removed due to cancer.

He has been on a feeding tube for the last eight months, has no lower jaw or soft palette on that side of his face anymore. Now, the cancer has returned, which means that he is never going to eat another meal in his life. 

Keeping him in mind, it is made some of my choices significantly easier. So I don't think it's coincidence that I've lost a couple of pounds in the last few days by simply – not letting myself eat food I don't need. 

We are going to go out and meet friends at a pub for my birthday tonight. And we are going to enjoy some food and drinks and friendship. And I am not going to overindulge. I'm going to enjoy friendship without over feeding myself. 

Head Check

The power to blog is not with me these days.  I've been working too much, still recovering from being sick, and not sleeping well and by extension... not eating great and making poor choices. My choices. CHOICES.  omg, no one is holding a gun to my head telling me to eat more.

I found out today that a friend has been given 1 year before he will succumb to his cancer. He has already had half his soft palette and lower jaw removed to try and eradicate the cancer.  Despite all of this, he has a better attitude about life then I do right now..... Which really means I need to get my head out my asshole and start remembering to enjoy my life and stop thinking that its so damn hard.

He will never eat another meal in his life.  So I have no excuses for complaining about how "eating right" is difficult.

Life can be a real bitch sometimes. But I have to remember to grab that bitch and spank her over my knee and send her on her way.  Life is fucking great for me, I don't have anything to complain about.

Slammed

omg, I've been so tired at night that I have not even had enough energy to sit and type.

We signed all the paperwork and bought a house last wednesday
I recovered (almost) from being sick
I spent the weekend gardening
My legs are KILLING ME
It feels good to be sore
My hip is not bothering me from al the gardenng (excellent sign)
We went and saw Pacific Rim (teehee!)
I have 9 month check up at the Surgeons office today
I am SWAMPED at work and am going to have to get back on my 10 hour days at the office.  Ug

okay - that is the basics.  More later. 

Also, here is the dog, checking out the squirrel action at the new house.

Back to work

I had all last week off to relax around the house.  It was great. Did some reading, watching tv, walking the dog, drinking coffee and various bits of cleaning. Met a couple of friends for lunch and that was about it.

The husband was sick all week and - of course - it finally caught me on Saturday night.  I can't afford to be out sick this week, so I'm going to have to power threw on drugs and coffee.  Bleck.

Water
Soup
Toast
NyQuil


this is what I see in m future.

I spent a good number of days in the 239 range.  A nice foray into new low territory, but I am all bunged up now, so this week I'm expecting to be up in the 240's again.. which I was this morning.

Such is life.

:)

NSV of the day

Those are my wedding rings, all up on my middle finger!! 

Almost time to get a "stunt ring" for the rest of my weight loss. 

Snails pace

Well, I feel like I've been moving at a snails pace for the last 4 months, and I have.  Its been a slow crawl downwards since February.  So I had a read back, and there is progress, so I just have to keep plugging away. I have to keep working too.  The new job has thrown my priorities for a loop, as did selling the house, moving and our new house search (excuses excuses!).

I thought that some new pics might help me, but in all honesty... I don't see a real difference between the 252 and 240. Ug.  I actually think I look bigger, but, but, but.,  New house, new mirror, different clothes.  

I know that I'm smaller, but it feels terrible.   However, I'm posting it up here anyway. I will overcome these feelings!

252 lbs - 240.6 lbs

301 lbs - 256 lbs

Wow, though...I can sure see the changes from the start.  :)

This week I've taken a week of stay-cation.  I a weeks more vacation time then the husband, so I'm reading, resting, relaxing.... okay, today was chiropractor, bank, blackberry checking, laundry and groceries, BUT that's it. I'm going to enjoy my time to MYSELF!

The other good news.. the fridge is full of good foods for me to eat, and healthy choices.  I'll get in some naps, some dog walks and some hip therapy work.   Very exciting!!