Tasty Tasty Salt

had a number of salt bombs yesterday.

All delicious, but man... the scale was up almost 2 lbs this morning!

Woof... that's a big old jump.  

Water water water.

Mental Break!

I ended up taking yesterday afternoon OFF.   what a glorious afternoon.

Did some shopping, got a few groceries, and then sat in silence with the dog doing some sewing in the sunshine.   

Feeling much more positive.

Ate like sh*t yesterday.  Cake at lunch, dessert after dinner, but managed to stay under calories and get in more water.

I'm looking forward to the weekend.

*grump*

***Whining Ahead***

Eggs & bacon for breakfast. I wanted something warm, fatty and protein rich today.  Needed to change up something to kick start this day off right.

I'm going to kick this water thing in the arse today. Water is going to be had. My goal today is to pee at least 6x before I'm done in the office today.

I'm in a bad spot - just part of the grind of life.  Job it annoying,  Not sleeping well enough.  Put all my winter clothes away... and they were all comfortable.   All the summer clothes I  have bought are tight, and I could stand to lose another 5lbs before they will look good.  I'm still on the edge of sick.  Sweaty again last night.  Sneezing, snuffly.  Arg.

I KNOW that I did that to myself... but its not making today's 15 outfit change-fest anymore better.   Wearing the last of the winter tops, summer bottoms and its 40 out there.. and going to be 80 by this afternoon.

I know its going to be a few days before this funk is worn off. 

I hate this weather.
I hate water.
I hate pants.
I hate people.
I hate ALL THE THINGS.

I do love coffee still.

Could I drink less water?

Not Likely.

Why on earth do I do this to myself.

Hungry...Cranky....

I just don't know today what I'm feeling today.

Hungry...cranky...Hangry......

Last night I just wanted to eat and eat and eat.

This morning I want to eat and eat and eat. 

I'm going to get a coffee and try to think about something else for a while.

Planning Fail

Enjoyed a mostly lazy weekend - which was nice.  

Slept in, saw a movie, shaved the dog, did some light cleaning, laundry, grocery shopping, wandered around in some resale shops. 

But this morning was a sh*tshow as I forgot to make my packed lunches last night.

Game of Thrones Season 4 opener.   I blame you. But also love you, so I guess its a wash.

Adjustments - MFP & My Brain

So the My Fitness Pal ap has finally updated and now you can pick your macros ( % of carbs, fats & protein you eat).

So I adjusted my macros to a more protein oriented mix and lowered my calorie intake from 1,770 to 1,700.   Not a lot, but I like to make small changes that I hardly notice, or else I tend to freak out.

Here are my numbers from yesterday - I'm still high on carbs, but I'm not going to beat myself up about it - I have rice crackers, hummus, and carrots in my diet - high in carbs, but also fiber.  Its going to be a balancing act.

As long as I'm getting close to my Protein goals for the day I'm happy!!  I used to be at 100g/ protein a day.  170 is going to be hard to hit, but anything over 100 is good to me.

Another new rule I'm trying to institute is that I don't eat after 8pm. I am in bed before 10 most nights, so I really DO NOT need to be snacking after 8pm - even if there are calories yet to be had for the day.

I've been good with my tracking - this is key for me.  I really cannot be left to graze yet.  I have auto-pilot for food and still try to overeat - even when I'm uncomfortably full.  Had to spit out a mouthful of dinner last night. 

I think that there are some people out there that have been more successful in changing their habits in the first year (bloggers that inspire me!), and I do think that I've done a lot and have made changes that are incredible.  But I know that I have more to go.  I think in another year I'll have the eating thing down much better. I do think that I'll always have to weigh in every day.  "When I stop looking, the fat wins". 

Anyway, I'm thankful to have these tools to help me - sleeve, tracking ap, scale.  They are what is keeping me from giving up!!  :)  I still have a "failure mentality", that has been in my brain for almost all my life. So I keep reminding myself that change takes time.  I was selfconscious of my body size at the age of 5, that kind of pressure is not going to be repaired overnight.

Today, I'm wearing a cardigan... size L.  I'll take these little moments when they come.