Weight Gain: +2.2lbsTotal Loss: 62.4lbs
I’m still learning, it’s been 1 year and 8 months since surgery (in june), and I have had what I would consider really good success, BUT... yes there is that giant but in here...
- Have I plateaued… yes.
- Am I working hard at this… not in the slightest.
- Should I be??
- Damn it, yes I should… but I don’t know how to do more at the moment.
I actually thought that I wasn’t going to be able to enjoy my vacation planned at the end of the month. I ended up managing okay, but certainly didn’t get to do all the hiking and moving around that I wanted, and had to be quite careful about my back.
However, I’m here still, and I'm about to catch up on the last three months of blogging, and the theme is Struggle.
I’ve been struggling with work, with turning 40, with being happy, with not using food for comfort, with not knowing how to manage my emotions and how not to hate myself so much, with trying to stay hydrated.
It’s been tough. I should have blogged more. I should have written my feelings down. “Shoulds” aren’t going to help me though. However, the one thing I did… was I DID NOT STOP WEIGHING IN.
Thankfully for the MFP app, I still jumped on the scale almost every day and weighed in. It was not fun, it was not nice, it was however, totally necessary and I’m still here trying to take care of business.