I'm feeling like the Christopher Columbus of my weight loss today ... My first foray into the 230's!!
Weigh-in 239.8
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Wednesday, July 3, 2013
Sunday, April 21, 2013
Weekend Catch Up
Phew, its been a long week.
Taking sick time is great for recovering, but it leaves a 2 day backlog of work at the office that I have to try and struggle out from under. But, such is the life of the workerbee, and its good for job security.
I'm still just a little under 100% well. However, I was going to let that stop me from working out on Saturday... THEN I DIDNT. I went and did my weights workout and my legs and mind are thanking me. Ah, so much better being active.
Also - had a nice NSV too boot. Its been cold here in Houston (Don't hate me - cold for Houston - like 45), so I pulled out a long sleeve dry weave shirt from the hardly-used drawer. Its a shirt I got playing with a sports team... 10 YEARS ago (pack rat much!). It was a championship shirt, so I've been keeping it.
Welp, I threw that puppy on AND IT FIT!!!!!!! gawds damn that made me happy.
weigh in today: 245.4
Doing the up-down dance, so now to start kicking my workouts (and water drinking) into gear again. Hello bike... nice to see you again.
Taking sick time is great for recovering, but it leaves a 2 day backlog of work at the office that I have to try and struggle out from under. But, such is the life of the workerbee, and its good for job security.
I'm still just a little under 100% well. However, I was going to let that stop me from working out on Saturday... THEN I DIDNT. I went and did my weights workout and my legs and mind are thanking me. Ah, so much better being active.
Also - had a nice NSV too boot. Its been cold here in Houston (Don't hate me - cold for Houston - like 45), so I pulled out a long sleeve dry weave shirt from the hardly-used drawer. Its a shirt I got playing with a sports team... 10 YEARS ago (pack rat much!). It was a championship shirt, so I've been keeping it.
Welp, I threw that puppy on AND IT FIT!!!!!!! gawds damn that made me happy.
weigh in today: 245.4
Doing the up-down dance, so now to start kicking my workouts (and water drinking) into gear again. Hello bike... nice to see you again.
Monday, April 8, 2013
Mondays!
Its Monday, yep... monday.
We were out of town this weekend at a festival, which was plenty fun and lots of excellent good times were had.
I had too much salty road snacks and not nearly enough water. Sunday we were home, but too late to recover then.
I'm feeling it today for sure.
Up on the scale, no number 2 this morning... the body is holding on!
Biking will happen tonight, water will happen all day and I'm photo'ing my foods today as well. This shall help!!!
:) Back on track after a weekend away.
We were out of town this weekend at a festival, which was plenty fun and lots of excellent good times were had.
I had too much salty road snacks and not nearly enough water. Sunday we were home, but too late to recover then.
I'm feeling it today for sure.
Up on the scale, no number 2 this morning... the body is holding on!
Biking will happen tonight, water will happen all day and I'm photo'ing my foods today as well. This shall help!!!
:) Back on track after a weekend away.
Monday, March 25, 2013
55 pounds = a 5000 BTU air conditioner
This mornings weigh-in saw me hit another milestone. 55pounds lost. Wow, that one snuck up on me.
And the average 5,000 BTU Air condition (window unit) is around 55lbs. Wow. That's a sizable chunk of weight.
I was going to post a picture of a 55lb fish, but really, I got caught up (teehee I'm punny) looking at fish pictures, and then thought, that I don't want some poor man to be all... OMG there is some fat chick with my fish on her blog. So, should you want some entertainment, plug into google the weight you lost, with fish after it and be prepared to be IMPRESSED with the size of these things.
And the average 5,000 BTU Air condition (window unit) is around 55lbs. Wow. That's a sizable chunk of weight.
I was going to post a picture of a 55lb fish, but really, I got caught up (teehee I'm punny) looking at fish pictures, and then thought, that I don't want some poor man to be all... OMG there is some fat chick with my fish on her blog. So, should you want some entertainment, plug into google the weight you lost, with fish after it and be prepared to be IMPRESSED with the size of these things.
Monday, March 18, 2013
Moved....mostly
Well, we are moved, mostly!
The old garage is a nightmare, and the house needs a final cleaning, but other than that - we are completed. We close the sale of the house on the 29th of March - so another couple of weeks.
However, this weekend we are spending a long weekend up at Texas A&M at a George RR Martin library opening/dinner/lecture (nerd alert!). So the move had to happen this weekend, or it was going to be a mid-week move (ah nothankyouverymuch).
The dog is so confused. Poor guy. He'll get used to it, but he is a rescue dog, so he doesn't take to much change very well. (like some other people I know... *cough* me *cough*)
I must have done 50 or 60 sets of stairs on Sunday alone. We started at 6am, the movers arrived at 8am, and we didn't stop until 6pm. I was in bed at 8:30pm... so tired. My legs are just BURNING today. So all in all, it was a good weekend for activity and fitness.
My water was much better Sat & Sun, so I think that helped out as well. Weigh in this morning showed my weekend of efforts. Back down into the 247's.
247.6
I can't wait to get home tonight, walk dog and get my closet organized. It was a small miracle that I could find anything that matched to wear to work today.
The old garage is a nightmare, and the house needs a final cleaning, but other than that - we are completed. We close the sale of the house on the 29th of March - so another couple of weeks.
However, this weekend we are spending a long weekend up at Texas A&M at a George RR Martin library opening/dinner/lecture (nerd alert!). So the move had to happen this weekend, or it was going to be a mid-week move (ah nothankyouverymuch).
The dog is so confused. Poor guy. He'll get used to it, but he is a rescue dog, so he doesn't take to much change very well. (like some other people I know... *cough* me *cough*)
I must have done 50 or 60 sets of stairs on Sunday alone. We started at 6am, the movers arrived at 8am, and we didn't stop until 6pm. I was in bed at 8:30pm... so tired. My legs are just BURNING today. So all in all, it was a good weekend for activity and fitness.
My water was much better Sat & Sun, so I think that helped out as well. Weigh in this morning showed my weekend of efforts. Back down into the 247's.
247.6
I can't wait to get home tonight, walk dog and get my closet organized. It was a small miracle that I could find anything that matched to wear to work today.
Monday, March 4, 2013
New Job Monday
Phew.... Feel like I've not stopped moving today. Busy busy busy busy. New job started and I've been on the trot the whole time.
Finally home to decompress and relax with some catching up on The Walking Dead.
Weigh in this morning was up, but I ate like shit yesterday. Hitting the water tonight and getting to bed nice and early.
Ahhhh. Day one is over. Phew.
Finally home to decompress and relax with some catching up on The Walking Dead.
Weigh in this morning was up, but I ate like shit yesterday. Hitting the water tonight and getting to bed nice and early.
Ahhhh. Day one is over. Phew.
Sunday, March 3, 2013
Harboring Fugitives
Clearly my body has been harboring fugitives for an entire month!
Weigh in this morning: 247.4
WAAAAA!!?!?!?!
Weighed in 2 more times just to be sure... also got photo evidence. That's 3.6lbs in 3 days.
Fraking WOW.
Weigh in this morning: 247.4
WAAAAA!!?!?!?!
Weighed in 2 more times just to be sure... also got photo evidence. That's 3.6lbs in 3 days.
Fraking WOW.
Saturday, March 2, 2013
Down
Down again this morning. Very pleased!
Weigh in: 249.4
Lots of tasks done this Saturday. Volunteered at Dress for Success this morning, then home to move a bunch of extra furniture down to the ground floor. Futon, two bedside tables, desk chair, and a desk. Up and down 2 flights of stairs too many times to count! It was All in the spare room - which we won't have room for in our temp apartment .... Which we rented for March 16.
House closing is imminent!! So we have secured a place to go while we look for a new home.
So the furniture was given to some friends who needed some. A great help to us and them. I love win win.
I got my exercise today, that's for sure.
Pork chops for dinner with applesauce. Yummy! Watching Flight on the sofa with the husband. Good day indeed.
Weigh in: 249.4
Lots of tasks done this Saturday. Volunteered at Dress for Success this morning, then home to move a bunch of extra furniture down to the ground floor. Futon, two bedside tables, desk chair, and a desk. Up and down 2 flights of stairs too many times to count! It was All in the spare room - which we won't have room for in our temp apartment .... Which we rented for March 16.
House closing is imminent!! So we have secured a place to go while we look for a new home.
So the furniture was given to some friends who needed some. A great help to us and them. I love win win.
I got my exercise today, that's for sure.
Pork chops for dinner with applesauce. Yummy! Watching Flight on the sofa with the husband. Good day indeed.
Friday, March 1, 2013
KerBoom!
Another milestone fell this morning.
Weigh in 249.6
I'm under 250. There is just something about 250lbs that sounds (to me) to be the threshold for largeness. "Normals", i.e. people who have never had a weight problem, see that number as the over/under. The officially fat number.
It was certainly one of those numbers that defeated me on the way up. Over 250lbs, I was crushed. I have fought with that number for ages.
Weigh in 249.6
I'm under 250. There is just something about 250lbs that sounds (to me) to be the threshold for largeness. "Normals", i.e. people who have never had a weight problem, see that number as the over/under. The officially fat number.
It was certainly one of those numbers that defeated me on the way up. Over 250lbs, I was crushed. I have fought with that number for ages.
Yesterday one of my co-workers commented on how I was half the size and looked great! I talked with her a bit about how that morning I had hit my -50lb goal and that I had another 50 to go. She could NOT BELIEVE that I could lose another 50. “oh no, don’t do that you will be too skinny”. I didn’t divulge my actual weight to her, but if I had, I bet that would have changed her opinion. Her opinion about it all in fact – her opinion that I look good, that I’m small enough and don’t have a lot more weight to lose.
So, I’m finally here in my weight loss - the magical place where people who know you think that you are finally just small enough and are starting to think that you should call it off and stay where you are. Of course, my previous size is an illusion, I do look smaller, but I’m far from normal sized. It’s the illusion from going from so big, to smaller.
So I’ll take that compliment and move on. Damn it I’m happy today. Under 250lbs is a great feeling.
Thursday, February 28, 2013
February 2013 Recap (GOAL!!!)
February, the longest-shortest month of the year.
It was a really hard one for me. Really hard. If I could sum this month up in a word, that word is STRESS. However As of TODAY....
I finally hit my next major milestone. -50lbs!! *SOUNDS THE TRUMPETS*
Weigh In this morning was 251lbs. This means that I ended Feb just like I did in Jan – with another new low. YAY! That has put the happy back in my step after a long and horrible month.
The numbers:
Jan 31 - 253.2
Feb 1 - 252.8
Feb 2 - 253.8
Feb 3 - 253.6
Feb 4 - 252.8
Feb 5 - 252.4
Feb 6 - 252.6
Feb 7 - 252.8
Feb 8 - 252.2
Feb 9 - 252.2
Feb 10 - 252.4
Feb 11 - 253.8
Feb 12 - 253.4
Feb 13 - 253.8
Feb 14 - 252.6
Feb 15 - 252.6
Feb 16 - 252.2
Feb 18 - 252.0
Feb 19 - 251.4
Feb 20 - 251.4
Feb 21 - 252.2
Feb 22 - 252.2
Feb 25 - 252.6
Feb 26 - 252.8
Feb 27 - 251.8
Feb 1 - 252.8
Feb 2 - 253.8
Feb 3 - 253.6
Feb 4 - 252.8
Feb 5 - 252.4
Feb 6 - 252.6
Feb 7 - 252.8
Feb 8 - 252.2
Feb 9 - 252.2
Feb 10 - 252.4
Feb 11 - 253.8
Feb 12 - 253.4
Feb 13 - 253.8
Feb 14 - 252.6
Feb 15 - 252.6
Feb 16 - 252.2
Feb 18 - 252.0
Feb 19 - 251.4
Feb 20 - 251.4
Feb 21 - 252.2
Feb 22 - 252.2
Feb 25 - 252.6
Feb 26 - 252.8
Feb 27 - 251.8
Feb 28 – 251.0
Pounds lost in Feb – 2.2
Pounds lost Overall – 50
While I’m not particularly impressed with my numbers this month - 2.2lbs is more along the lines of what I have lost in a week. I’m still pleased that I did it. It was difficult to stay positive, and to keep going, but I did.
I went to yoga last night, I didn’t want to, I had a million excuses that I let roll around as I got changed, grabbed water and got in the car. It was hard, but I need to keep at it. Its good practice to make myself do something that I don’t want to.
Wednesday, February 27, 2013
Desk Drawer and things
The fabulous Miss Lori at I Just Ate My Willpower had a fun task for us this morning! What does your desk drawer look like! Weeeee!
Of course, I'm moving desks on Friday, so this is substantially better then usual in terms of amount and organization.
Weigh in this morning was considerably better. 251.8. Much better then the last few days, but this month is going to be a near zero bust. Its not a GAIN, so I can't be too unhappy.
Tonight is yoga, I don't want to go already, which is a clear sign that I should! ha!
The House was inspected yesterday, there are no major issues that came from it - so our realtor said - they typically hear about it right away if there is. So we are proceeding. March 29 is the clear out date, so we need to find a place asap to rent while we look for a new home. Starting that today!!
Three days and counting to the new job starts. Things are starting to get uncomfortable. Everyone is sad and not shy about telling me how big a hole I'm going to leave, and how much they love working with me. Ouch.
If only they had been as proactive about keeping me here...
Anyway, its hard, because, I really HATE letting people down and have been in a self-deprecating spiral as I tell people they will find someone as good, it won't be an issue, etc. etc. blah.
They aren't. ha! I said it.
I'm awesome, I worked twice as hard for half the pay, ate twice the sh*t sandwiches from the grumpy people I work with, smiled and kept going. I really care about doing an excellent job, on top of being a great funny entertaining person to be around. So, they are sad for a reason, but they want to blame me and that's the hard part for me not to internalize.
Of course, I'm moving desks on Friday, so this is substantially better then usual in terms of amount and organization.
- Oatmeal packets
- Blue lid - Natural Peanut butter
- Pink lid - tuna
- Zip lock - Big Train Chai Latte protein powder
- Small silver lid - V8
- Large silver lid - Zero Calorie Orange fizzy water drink
- Tampons
- Halloween decorations
Weigh in this morning was considerably better. 251.8. Much better then the last few days, but this month is going to be a near zero bust. Its not a GAIN, so I can't be too unhappy.
Tonight is yoga, I don't want to go already, which is a clear sign that I should! ha!
The House was inspected yesterday, there are no major issues that came from it - so our realtor said - they typically hear about it right away if there is. So we are proceeding. March 29 is the clear out date, so we need to find a place asap to rent while we look for a new home. Starting that today!!
Three days and counting to the new job starts. Things are starting to get uncomfortable. Everyone is sad and not shy about telling me how big a hole I'm going to leave, and how much they love working with me. Ouch.
If only they had been as proactive about keeping me here...
Anyway, its hard, because, I really HATE letting people down and have been in a self-deprecating spiral as I tell people they will find someone as good, it won't be an issue, etc. etc. blah.
They aren't. ha! I said it.
I'm awesome, I worked twice as hard for half the pay, ate twice the sh*t sandwiches from the grumpy people I work with, smiled and kept going. I really care about doing an excellent job, on top of being a great funny entertaining person to be around. So, they are sad for a reason, but they want to blame me and that's the hard part for me not to internalize.
Monday, February 25, 2013
February, how I hate thee
Weekend away was great. It was nice to re-charge and get outside (sunburn - ouch) and see lots of people. However, I really let the snack food get away from me and today the scale is showing a nice salt-bloat of 252.6.
Okay.... over dramatic. I can't believe that I just called .4 of a pound a bloat. Jeez. Back in the day I would have seen it as a major victory...however, I didn't have a surgically altered stomach.
Ahem... moving on.
Okay - its 3 days pre-preiod, I had a lot of salty snacks and frankly, I've been a giant ball o' stress with the new job, the house staging, cleaning and selling. So... I'm calling February a wash.
March... watch out, I'm coming to kick your ass.
Okay.... over dramatic. I can't believe that I just called .4 of a pound a bloat. Jeez. Back in the day I would have seen it as a major victory...however, I didn't have a surgically altered stomach.
Ahem... moving on.
Okay - its 3 days pre-preiod, I had a lot of salty snacks and frankly, I've been a giant ball o' stress with the new job, the house staging, cleaning and selling. So... I'm calling February a wash.
March... watch out, I'm coming to kick your ass.
Thursday, February 21, 2013
WOOP!
okay!
We have 2 full price offers on the house today. HURRAY!!! Houses in our area were going fast - we knew that, but we didn't know HOW fast. So we are going to sign off on one of them today and get this party started. Looks like we will be moving by the 28th of March. OMG!
HURRAY!!!!! and ... jeeze already!!! haha
Last night I went and joined a beginners yoga class. It was hard, I have very inflexible feet and ankles, so that makes it tough, but... I liked it and I have a 10 class pass to use over the next 3 months. So yoga will be done.
Scale was up this morning, 252.2lbs.
I had dinner (3/4 of an Amy's veggie lasagna) at 9pm last night. I should have had a protein shake and went to bed, but I'm not making really good decisions right now. I need to remedy this. Have any of you ever heard of Decision Fatigue.
I know that I have this....my job is making 1,000 decisions an hour, being a wife is all about decisions, the house, the food, the dog, the car, the cleaning, what we are doing, when it needs doing, how its going to be done. My Husbeast is a wonderful man, but he isn't great at getting anything done and decided. Thats my job. *sigh*
Decision Fatigue is basically research showing that the more decision you make in the day (even little easy ones), the harder decisions are to make further along (even the easy ones!). Its a big reason why I make poor choices at night (so think I), and why the decisions about me and my health tended to be poor... because I was so far down the priority list. Which, I'm working on changing that too.
Anyway - that's my little psa today. Its some interesting stuff.
We have 2 full price offers on the house today. HURRAY!!! Houses in our area were going fast - we knew that, but we didn't know HOW fast. So we are going to sign off on one of them today and get this party started. Looks like we will be moving by the 28th of March. OMG!
HURRAY!!!!! and ... jeeze already!!! haha
Last night I went and joined a beginners yoga class. It was hard, I have very inflexible feet and ankles, so that makes it tough, but... I liked it and I have a 10 class pass to use over the next 3 months. So yoga will be done.
Scale was up this morning, 252.2lbs.
I had dinner (3/4 of an Amy's veggie lasagna) at 9pm last night. I should have had a protein shake and went to bed, but I'm not making really good decisions right now. I need to remedy this. Have any of you ever heard of Decision Fatigue.
I know that I have this....my job is making 1,000 decisions an hour, being a wife is all about decisions, the house, the food, the dog, the car, the cleaning, what we are doing, when it needs doing, how its going to be done. My Husbeast is a wonderful man, but he isn't great at getting anything done and decided. Thats my job. *sigh*
Decision Fatigue is basically research showing that the more decision you make in the day (even little easy ones), the harder decisions are to make further along (even the easy ones!). Its a big reason why I make poor choices at night (so think I), and why the decisions about me and my health tended to be poor... because I was so far down the priority list. Which, I'm working on changing that too.
Anyway - that's my little psa today. Its some interesting stuff.
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Tired Bunny/One bad thing
Last night I was in bed with the lights off at 9:30pm. That is unheard of for me, as I am typically a night owl.
However, I'm pretty darn busy right now, I had a hard weights session last night, and top off all that with the monster amount of cleaning and running around - I think it was a well deserved night off.
One bad thing: Old habits die hard.
I was out at the walmart getting a new doormat, and thought that I would go and get a tiny small ice cream, but inside I already knew that I was going to get a pint. And that I was going to eat that pint all by myself.
As if.
So I got home, told myself a bunch of lies about how good I've been and how I'm only going to eat a little bit. Then I sat down on the couch with the spoon - and tried to eat it all. I couldn't. Gandalf the Sleeve Wizard did his job and stopped me. So, all I did was make myself sick, and barfing ice cream is really so so nasty, so nasty.
Mission accomplished ... in terms of negative reinforcement. I have the remainder of that pint in the freezer and honestly, the flavor is not appealing anymore.
Weigh in this morning; 251.4 - holding steady.
On a good note - we had our house listed last night and there are 4 viewing booked for today, 2 for Thursday and one for Friday already. WOOT! Sell Sell Sell.
However, I'm pretty darn busy right now, I had a hard weights session last night, and top off all that with the monster amount of cleaning and running around - I think it was a well deserved night off.
One bad thing: Old habits die hard.
I was out at the walmart getting a new doormat, and thought that I would go and get a tiny small ice cream, but inside I already knew that I was going to get a pint. And that I was going to eat that pint all by myself.
As if.
So I got home, told myself a bunch of lies about how good I've been and how I'm only going to eat a little bit. Then I sat down on the couch with the spoon - and tried to eat it all. I couldn't. Gandalf the Sleeve Wizard did his job and stopped me. So, all I did was make myself sick, and barfing ice cream is really so so nasty, so nasty.
Mission accomplished ... in terms of negative reinforcement. I have the remainder of that pint in the freezer and honestly, the flavor is not appealing anymore.
Weigh in this morning; 251.4 - holding steady.
On a good note - we had our house listed last night and there are 4 viewing booked for today, 2 for Thursday and one for Friday already. WOOT! Sell Sell Sell.
Thursday, February 14, 2013
Valentines!
Happy Valentines Everyone!!
I have a date with the Husbeast tonight to go and see DIE HARD 4!!!!! A good day to die harder or whatever. 25 years ago the first movie came out... damn that made me feel OLD.
Weigh In this morning - 252.6 :)
Happily heading back down from my stress-ball week. I'm feeling significantly better, still a little nervous. I should be getting a written offer this Friday!!
But, for now I have other things to focus on. Chiefly, house selling. Our realtor called and said the market has taken off and we need to get ready for our house to get listed next week, Wednesday. This Sunday we are having two people come through for a pre-opening viewing (yay!). I'm keeping my fingers crossed for a very quick sale. She is even re-doing the comps and pricing because what we thought would be good 3 weeks ago is too low now. Great news for us!
So evenings this week are just pounding my way through all the little chores...changing light bulbs, cleaning stuff, polishing the glass wear, dusting, packing boxes, organizing the drawers and cupboards, etc, etc, etc.
Okay. Time to get to work. My blogging has fallen off this month - I need to get back on it.
and for you singles out there.... here is your gift from me!
I have a date with the Husbeast tonight to go and see DIE HARD 4!!!!! A good day to die harder or whatever. 25 years ago the first movie came out... damn that made me feel OLD.
Weigh In this morning - 252.6 :)
Happily heading back down from my stress-ball week. I'm feeling significantly better, still a little nervous. I should be getting a written offer this Friday!!
But, for now I have other things to focus on. Chiefly, house selling. Our realtor called and said the market has taken off and we need to get ready for our house to get listed next week, Wednesday. This Sunday we are having two people come through for a pre-opening viewing (yay!). I'm keeping my fingers crossed for a very quick sale. She is even re-doing the comps and pricing because what we thought would be good 3 weeks ago is too low now. Great news for us!
So evenings this week are just pounding my way through all the little chores...changing light bulbs, cleaning stuff, polishing the glass wear, dusting, packing boxes, organizing the drawers and cupboards, etc, etc, etc.
Okay. Time to get to work. My blogging has fallen off this month - I need to get back on it.
and for you singles out there.... here is your gift from me!
Friday, February 8, 2013
Busy!
I've been rock'n and roll'n at the office and at home. Lots of projects on the go, not time to stop.
Weight is doing good - I'm in the early part of the month "stall" where I be-bop around in the same pound range for a week or more.
Weighed in at 252.2 today. Still, I'm very pleased and trusting my sleeve, Gandalf to do his job. He is, but I'm doing my part too!
Water has been a problem these last couple of days, so I'm going to concentrate on that today and this weekend.
I have my second interview later this morning. I woke up at 3am and was wide awake until 6am...got another 40 min of sleep after that, and then it was up shower, dress, and eat. I've thought about it, prepped for it. Now I just have to do it.
Last night I even managed to get in a 45min walk.
Weight is doing good - I'm in the early part of the month "stall" where I be-bop around in the same pound range for a week or more.
Weighed in at 252.2 today. Still, I'm very pleased and trusting my sleeve, Gandalf to do his job. He is, but I'm doing my part too!
Water has been a problem these last couple of days, so I'm going to concentrate on that today and this weekend.
I have my second interview later this morning. I woke up at 3am and was wide awake until 6am...got another 40 min of sleep after that, and then it was up shower, dress, and eat. I've thought about it, prepped for it. Now I just have to do it.
Last night I even managed to get in a 45min walk.
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
Closing in on my 50lb Goal & Thoughts on Workplace Descrimination
OMG ... I am so close to having lost 50lbs I honestly can't believe that I let this sneak up on me like this.
WOOHOO! I'm super excited.
Weigh in this morning: 252.4
I have a second interview this Friday for an internal job I applied for, and here is why I want to talk about it.
Nicole at Beauty and the Bypass was asking a question about discrimination at work for being overweight. I wanted to reply to that post, but the answer is long, complicated and biased to my experience.
As someone who has been varying degrees of slightly overweight to morbidly obese, but also brainwashed by my parents to think that I was a huge hosebeast from a very young age, I have a hard time telling when I was actually overweight and when I was just a little chunky and when I was actually normal sized.
Honestly, I still do some days.
Anyway - absolutely I've been discriminated against as a fat person at every job I've ever had. Maybe not for promotions, but as a person. To combat it, I was hyper sensitive about doing good work, being competent and making sure that I was in totally control of my job and duties. Mostly, I think people looked at me and thought nasty things about my fatness. However, I made sure that no one could say that I was lazy and didn't do my job well. However, even with all these efforts, I never was invited to work on any extra committees, projects and given praise for my contributions.
But, that is a big but.... I really believe that the biggest factor holding me back has always been me.
I'm the one that thinks I can't do it, I'm the one that scared, I'm the one that doesn't want to be out in public looking a fat mess, I'm the one that thinks people are laughing at me, I'm the one that thinks I don't deserve to be paid well, appreciated and promoted. I worry that people don't want to sit next to me at dinner tables, meetings, any place where I might have intruded on their personal space. I worried about tight elevator rides, getting in vehicles with co-workers and all kinds of strange little daily things.
When I went to this last interview, my attitude had changed. The interviewer told me about the events planning part of this role, and I thought about how great that would be. An hour later I realized, that I hadn't even thought about how embarrassed I would have be to meet hoteliers after dealing with them on the phone, that I wasn't scared to wear dress shoes all day walking around.
50+lbs ago, that would have been the first thought. The job involves some travel - no problem, I fit into airplanes now.
I also wasn't worried about the first impression that I would make, that I would walk into the interview and the first thing that they would notice wouldn't be how massive I was. Now, I just look kind of chunky, but I wouldn't say that I look so out of place anymore.
So I think that there is discrimination, I also think that I am a significant amount of my problem. Sadly there will always be "something", either I'm too fat, too tall, too ugly, too stupid, too canadian, too married, too freckled, too smart, too whatever.... In the end all of those things are more about the person that is thinking them, then about me. So, I have to just work on the me.
Anyway, Nicole, thank you for putting that into my brain to think about. I know that there is a lot more to this, but its good fodder for starting a conversation - even if it is just with myself!! :)
WOOHOO! I'm super excited.
Weigh in this morning: 252.4
I have a second interview this Friday for an internal job I applied for, and here is why I want to talk about it.
Nicole at Beauty and the Bypass was asking a question about discrimination at work for being overweight. I wanted to reply to that post, but the answer is long, complicated and biased to my experience.
As someone who has been varying degrees of slightly overweight to morbidly obese, but also brainwashed by my parents to think that I was a huge hosebeast from a very young age, I have a hard time telling when I was actually overweight and when I was just a little chunky and when I was actually normal sized.
Honestly, I still do some days.
Anyway - absolutely I've been discriminated against as a fat person at every job I've ever had. Maybe not for promotions, but as a person. To combat it, I was hyper sensitive about doing good work, being competent and making sure that I was in totally control of my job and duties. Mostly, I think people looked at me and thought nasty things about my fatness. However, I made sure that no one could say that I was lazy and didn't do my job well. However, even with all these efforts, I never was invited to work on any extra committees, projects and given praise for my contributions.
But, that is a big but.... I really believe that the biggest factor holding me back has always been me.
I'm the one that thinks I can't do it, I'm the one that scared, I'm the one that doesn't want to be out in public looking a fat mess, I'm the one that thinks people are laughing at me, I'm the one that thinks I don't deserve to be paid well, appreciated and promoted. I worry that people don't want to sit next to me at dinner tables, meetings, any place where I might have intruded on their personal space. I worried about tight elevator rides, getting in vehicles with co-workers and all kinds of strange little daily things.
When I went to this last interview, my attitude had changed. The interviewer told me about the events planning part of this role, and I thought about how great that would be. An hour later I realized, that I hadn't even thought about how embarrassed I would have be to meet hoteliers after dealing with them on the phone, that I wasn't scared to wear dress shoes all day walking around.
50+lbs ago, that would have been the first thought. The job involves some travel - no problem, I fit into airplanes now.
I also wasn't worried about the first impression that I would make, that I would walk into the interview and the first thing that they would notice wouldn't be how massive I was. Now, I just look kind of chunky, but I wouldn't say that I look so out of place anymore.
So I think that there is discrimination, I also think that I am a significant amount of my problem. Sadly there will always be "something", either I'm too fat, too tall, too ugly, too stupid, too canadian, too married, too freckled, too smart, too whatever.... In the end all of those things are more about the person that is thinking them, then about me. So, I have to just work on the me.
Anyway, Nicole, thank you for putting that into my brain to think about. I know that there is a lot more to this, but its good fodder for starting a conversation - even if it is just with myself!! :)
Monday, February 4, 2013
Mission Accomplished
Mission Accomplished. Yesterdays water consumption was up and I'm feeling better for it.
Weigh In: 252.8
Back down again this morning from my salt and dehydration bloating this weekend.
I worked hard on Sunday as we got a lot of stuff done and I can feel it in my legs and back for sure. Plus, I slept like the dead last night. O.U.T out!
Just finished my lunch - left over naked tenders with carrots and celery sticks from BW3 (med hot sauce and blue cheese dressing on the side). YUM! Plus, its nice to have every meal I get while out turn into 2 or 3 meals. Crazy times!
I'm wearing today a shirt I bought a month ago that didn't fit. It fits today. LOVE that feeling.
Happy Monday!!
Weigh In: 252.8
Back down again this morning from my salt and dehydration bloating this weekend.
I worked hard on Sunday as we got a lot of stuff done and I can feel it in my legs and back for sure. Plus, I slept like the dead last night. O.U.T out!
Just finished my lunch - left over naked tenders with carrots and celery sticks from BW3 (med hot sauce and blue cheese dressing on the side). YUM! Plus, its nice to have every meal I get while out turn into 2 or 3 meals. Crazy times!
I'm wearing today a shirt I bought a month ago that didn't fit. It fits today. LOVE that feeling.
Happy Monday!!
Sunday, February 3, 2013
OPERATION HYDRATION
I have been running around like a mad woman these last few days, working on the house, cleaning, but also enjoying myself so I can't complain too hard.
I also had my first real volunteer session at the Dress for Success on Friday morning. Which was great. I can't wait to go back and get my hands into the organization and helping out.
However with all the in and around and out and about over the last 4 days... I've REALLY neglected my water. Badly. So today is OPERATION HYDRATION.
Water is on all floor, on all stopping points and its my job today to get it in me.
We are bricking in a back patio today, so for the last few days I've been to the hardware stores, getting 100 large paving bricks, packing them too and from the store to car, car to garage and garage to back yard today.
We have another friend here to help so that's been great, he and the Husbeast are getting a few more bricks and bits that we need. You know that there is never any project that has 100% of what you need no matter how good you plan, so I'm getting a break.
And by break I mean, I unloaded the dishwasher, put the laundry in, and am updating my blog. HA! A woman's work is never done.
Weigh in this morning is: 253.6
Pic of the dawg on the new bricks.
I also had my first real volunteer session at the Dress for Success on Friday morning. Which was great. I can't wait to go back and get my hands into the organization and helping out.
However with all the in and around and out and about over the last 4 days... I've REALLY neglected my water. Badly. So today is OPERATION HYDRATION.
Water is on all floor, on all stopping points and its my job today to get it in me.
We are bricking in a back patio today, so for the last few days I've been to the hardware stores, getting 100 large paving bricks, packing them too and from the store to car, car to garage and garage to back yard today.
We have another friend here to help so that's been great, he and the Husbeast are getting a few more bricks and bits that we need. You know that there is never any project that has 100% of what you need no matter how good you plan, so I'm getting a break.
And by break I mean, I unloaded the dishwasher, put the laundry in, and am updating my blog. HA! A woman's work is never done.
Weigh in this morning is: 253.6
Pic of the dawg on the new bricks.
Thursday, January 31, 2013
January Recap
The January recap is here! I can't believe that it has been 3.5months since surgery. Today is especially nice as I hit a new exciting low and am feeling great.
January by the numbers:
Dec 31 - 260.2
Pounds lost in January - 7
Pounds lost overall - 47.8
Fraking WOW!!!! I AM SO HAPPY! Here is the graph. I had some major up and downs, but as I keep going I'm learning to take them for what they are - reminders to drink more water and eat better foods!
I hit a big milestone this month - losing 45lbs. People at work are starting to really take note and a few of them are asking me about it. Which can get uncomfortable, but I tell them all the same stuff.
I am nearly out of my plus sized cloths for good. Today I bought a dress today at J.Jill in XL and there was room in it. It was NOT stretched to its maximum structural capacity that bordered on obscene. This dress actually fits and looks great. I will get some spanxy-things to help with the lumpies, but I'm really pleased and feeling even... *gasp* inspired.
I keep saying that I'm going to get on my bike in the mornings and this has NOT happened yet. February is my month. Its going to happen.
January by the numbers:
Dec 31 - 260.2
Jan 1 - 260
Jan 2 - 260
Jan 3 -
260
Jan 4 - 259
Jan 5 - 258.2
Jan 6 - 258.6
Jan 7 - 257.8
Jan 8 -
258.6
Jan 9 - 258.6
Jan 10 - 257.8
Jan 11 - 256.6
Jan 12 - 256
(-45lbs)
Jan 13 - 256.8
Jan 14 - 257.8
Jan 15 - 258
Jan 16
257.8
Jan 17 - 256
Jan 18 - 256.6
Jan 19 - 255.8
Jan 20 -
255.6
Jan 21 - 255.8
Jan 22 - 254.8
Jan 23 - 255.4
Jan 24 -
256.4
Jan 25 - 255.6
Jan 26 - 255.6
Jan 27 - 254.8
Jan 28 -
255.2
Jan 29 - 254.4
Jan 30 - 254
Jan 31 - 253.2
Pounds lost in January - 7
Pounds lost overall - 47.8
Fraking WOW!!!! I AM SO HAPPY! Here is the graph. I had some major up and downs, but as I keep going I'm learning to take them for what they are - reminders to drink more water and eat better foods!
I hit a big milestone this month - losing 45lbs. People at work are starting to really take note and a few of them are asking me about it. Which can get uncomfortable, but I tell them all the same stuff.
- stop drinking with your meals
- measure everything you eat
- count your calories
- get moving
- drink more water
I am nearly out of my plus sized cloths for good. Today I bought a dress today at J.Jill in XL and there was room in it. It was NOT stretched to its maximum structural capacity that bordered on obscene. This dress actually fits and looks great. I will get some spanxy-things to help with the lumpies, but I'm really pleased and feeling even... *gasp* inspired.
I keep saying that I'm going to get on my bike in the mornings and this has NOT happened yet. February is my month. Its going to happen.
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