February 2013 Recap (GOAL!!!)

February, the longest-shortest month of the year.

It was a really hard one for me. Really hard. If I could sum this month up in a word, that word is STRESS.  However As of TODAY....

I finally hit my next major milestone. -50lbs!!   *SOUNDS THE TRUMPETS*  

Weigh In this morning was 251lbs.  This means that I ended Feb just like I did in Jan – with another new low.  YAY!   That has put the happy back in my step after a long and horrible month. 

The numbers:

Jan 31 - 253.2
Feb 1 - 252.8
Feb 2 - 253.8
Feb 3 - 253.6
Feb 4 - 252.8
Feb 5 - 252.4
Feb 6 - 252.6
Feb 7 - 252.8
Feb 8 - 252.2
Feb 9 - 252.2
Feb 10 - 252.4
Feb 11 - 253.8
Feb 12 - 253.4
Feb 13 - 253.8
Feb 14 - 252.6
Feb 15 - 252.6
Feb 16 - 252.2
Feb 18 - 252.0
Feb 19 - 251.4
Feb 20 - 251.4
Feb 21 - 252.2
Feb 22 - 252.2
Feb 25 - 252.6
Feb 26 - 252.8
Feb 27 - 251.8

Feb 28 – 251.0

Pounds lost in Feb – 2.2

Pounds lost Overall – 50

While I’m not particularly impressed with my numbers this month -  2.2lbs is more along the lines of what I have lost in a week.  I’m still pleased that I did it. It was difficult to stay positive, and to keep going, but I did. 

I went to yoga last night, I didn’t want to, I had a million excuses that I let roll around as I got changed, grabbed water and got in the car.  It was hard, but I need to keep at it.  Its good practice to make myself do something that I don’t want to.

February has been a month of struggles, so I guess it taught me that I can make it though anything if I take it a step at a time!

Desk Drawer and things

The fabulous Miss Lori at I Just Ate My Willpower had a fun task for us this morning!  What does your desk drawer look like!   Weeeee!

Of course, I'm moving desks on Friday, so this is substantially better then usual in terms of amount and organization.

• Oatmeal packets
• Blue lid - Natural Peanut butter
• Pink lid - tuna
• Zip lock - Big Train Chai Latte protein powder
• Small silver lid - V8
• Large silver lid - Zero Calorie Orange fizzy water drink
• Tampons
• Halloween decorations

Pretty unexciting mix all in!

Weigh in this morning was considerably better.  251.8.  Much better then the last few days, but this month is going to be a near zero bust. Its not a GAIN, so I can't be too unhappy.  

Tonight is yoga, I don't want to go already, which is a clear sign that I should! ha! 

The House was inspected yesterday, there are no major issues that came from it - so our realtor said - they typically hear about it right away if there is.  So we are proceeding.  March 29 is the clear out date, so we need to find a place asap to rent while we look for a new home.  Starting that today!!

Three days and counting to the new job starts. Things are starting to get uncomfortable. Everyone is sad and not shy about telling me how big a hole I'm going to leave, and how much they love working with me.  Ouch.

If only they had been as proactive about keeping me here... 

Anyway, its hard, because, I really HATE letting people down and have been in a self-deprecating spiral as I tell people they will find someone as good, it won't be an issue, etc. etc. blah. 

They aren't.  ha! I said it. 

I'm awesome, I worked twice as hard for half the pay, ate twice the sh*t sandwiches from the grumpy people I work with, smiled and kept going.  I really care about doing an excellent job, on top of being a great funny entertaining person to be around. So, they are sad for a reason, but they want to blame me and that's the hard part for me not to internalize.

WOOP!

okay!

We have 2 full price offers on the house today.  HURRAY!!!   Houses in our area were going fast - we knew that, but we didn't know HOW fast.  So we are going to sign off on one of them today and get this party started.  Looks like we will be moving by the 28th of March.  OMG!

HURRAY!!!!!  and ... jeeze already!!!  haha

Last night I went and joined a beginners yoga class. It was hard, I have very inflexible feet and ankles, so that makes it tough, but... I liked it and I have a 10 class pass to use over the next 3 months.  So yoga will be done.

Scale was up this morning, 252.2lbs.

I had dinner (3/4 of an Amy's veggie lasagna) at 9pm last night. I should have had a protein shake and went to bed, but I'm not making really good decisions right now. I need to remedy this.  Have any of you ever heard of Decision Fatigue. 

I know that I have this....my job is making 1,000 decisions an hour, being a wife is all about decisions, the house, the food, the dog, the car, the cleaning, what we are doing, when it needs doing, how its going to be done.  My Husbeast is a wonderful man, but he isn't great at getting anything done and decided. Thats my job.  *sigh* 

Decision Fatigue is basically research showing that the more decision you make in the day (even little easy ones), the harder decisions are to make further along (even the easy ones!).  Its a big reason why I make poor choices at night (so think I), and why the decisions about me and my health tended to be poor... because I was so far down the priority list.  Which, I'm working on changing that too.

Anyway - that's my little psa today.  Its some interesting stuff.