Last night I was in bed with the lights off at 9:30pm. That is unheard of for me, as I am typically a night owl.
However, I'm pretty darn busy right now, I had a hard weights session last night, and top off all that with the monster amount of cleaning and running around - I think it was a well deserved night off.
One bad thing: Old habits die hard.
I was out at the walmart getting a new doormat, and thought that I would go and get a tiny small ice cream, but inside I already knew that I was going to get a pint. And that I was going to eat that pint all by myself.
As if.
So I got home, told myself a bunch of lies about how good I've been and how I'm only going to eat a little bit. Then I sat down on the couch with the spoon - and tried to eat it all. I couldn't. Gandalf the Sleeve Wizard did his job and stopped me. So, all I did was make myself sick, and barfing ice cream is really so so nasty, so nasty.
Mission accomplished ... in terms of negative reinforcement. I have the remainder of that pint in the freezer and honestly, the flavor is not appealing anymore.
Weigh in this morning; 251.4 - holding steady.
On a good note - we had our house listed last night and there are 4 viewing booked for today, 2 for Thursday and one for Friday already. WOOT! Sell Sell Sell.
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Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Friday, February 8, 2013
Busy!
I've been rock'n and roll'n at the office and at home. Lots of projects on the go, not time to stop.
Weight is doing good - I'm in the early part of the month "stall" where I be-bop around in the same pound range for a week or more.
Weighed in at 252.2 today. Still, I'm very pleased and trusting my sleeve, Gandalf to do his job. He is, but I'm doing my part too!
Water has been a problem these last couple of days, so I'm going to concentrate on that today and this weekend.
I have my second interview later this morning. I woke up at 3am and was wide awake until 6am...got another 40 min of sleep after that, and then it was up shower, dress, and eat. I've thought about it, prepped for it. Now I just have to do it.
Last night I even managed to get in a 45min walk.
Weight is doing good - I'm in the early part of the month "stall" where I be-bop around in the same pound range for a week or more.
Weighed in at 252.2 today. Still, I'm very pleased and trusting my sleeve, Gandalf to do his job. He is, but I'm doing my part too!
Water has been a problem these last couple of days, so I'm going to concentrate on that today and this weekend.
I have my second interview later this morning. I woke up at 3am and was wide awake until 6am...got another 40 min of sleep after that, and then it was up shower, dress, and eat. I've thought about it, prepped for it. Now I just have to do it.
Last night I even managed to get in a 45min walk.
Monday, December 24, 2012
Success and Learning
I had a great learning night last night... and a great milestone this morning.
Food - its still a struggle for me visually - the want vs need vs able to eat.
Last night we were watching some tv (Kitchen Nightmares...which really shouldn't stimulate the appetite) and Gordon was at a seaside restaurant and made fish and chips. The old evil beast reared its head - I WANT - so instead of home "cooked" soup with a little bit of cheese and crackers for dinner, we decided to go to the pub and get some traditional fish and chips. That was mistake one.
Mistake two was ordering an appy and a plate of fish and chips to share. Which, in past would have been a major victory. However, now it is still TOO MUCH.
We had veggie samosas to start. I had one, took most of the dough off, and ate the inside. We shared the fish and chips, I ate most of the piece of fish - took off 90% of the batter and had 1.5T of tartar sauce. It was served with green peas, and chips. I had 4 chips, and 3T of peas.
Once again, there is good progress here, I'm making better choices, but I'm still not seeing the portions - when I'm eating out. I'm doing good with my portions at home - smaller plates, measuring tools etc.
That my friends, is WAY too much food. It was like once I had eaten the samosa I forgot that I had. It's all part of the process, and tonight, Gandalf the Sleeve did his job.
I felt terrible and when I got home, it all came back up. Not how I want to manage my food, but it's excellent negative reinforcement. I wanted fish and chips, but I wanted it like I had it before. That just isn't possible anymore. I can't eat like that, if I try, I don't enjoy it.
I talked to the Husbeast about it after. I was the instigator, I wanted bad food, food that I won't enjoy and food that is not going to get me to where I want to be. I told him that I need him to be a sounding board. He is such a great man, he only wants to make me happy. A great quality to have in a husband, but not great for a food-partner-in-crime. We are taking steps to stop this kind of bad behavior.
Progress.
This mornings weigh in was a major milestone for me. 259.8lbs
I have finally touched the 250's. TWO FRAKING FIFTYS! The last time I was in the 250's was in 2007. It's such a great feeling to see that number.
Food - its still a struggle for me visually - the want vs need vs able to eat.
Last night we were watching some tv (Kitchen Nightmares...which really shouldn't stimulate the appetite) and Gordon was at a seaside restaurant and made fish and chips. The old evil beast reared its head - I WANT - so instead of home "cooked" soup with a little bit of cheese and crackers for dinner, we decided to go to the pub and get some traditional fish and chips. That was mistake one.
Mistake two was ordering an appy and a plate of fish and chips to share. Which, in past would have been a major victory. However, now it is still TOO MUCH.
We had veggie samosas to start. I had one, took most of the dough off, and ate the inside. We shared the fish and chips, I ate most of the piece of fish - took off 90% of the batter and had 1.5T of tartar sauce. It was served with green peas, and chips. I had 4 chips, and 3T of peas.
Once again, there is good progress here, I'm making better choices, but I'm still not seeing the portions - when I'm eating out. I'm doing good with my portions at home - smaller plates, measuring tools etc.
That my friends, is WAY too much food. It was like once I had eaten the samosa I forgot that I had. It's all part of the process, and tonight, Gandalf the Sleeve did his job.
I felt terrible and when I got home, it all came back up. Not how I want to manage my food, but it's excellent negative reinforcement. I wanted fish and chips, but I wanted it like I had it before. That just isn't possible anymore. I can't eat like that, if I try, I don't enjoy it.
I talked to the Husbeast about it after. I was the instigator, I wanted bad food, food that I won't enjoy and food that is not going to get me to where I want to be. I told him that I need him to be a sounding board. He is such a great man, he only wants to make me happy. A great quality to have in a husband, but not great for a food-partner-in-crime. We are taking steps to stop this kind of bad behavior.
Progress.
This mornings weigh in was a major milestone for me. 259.8lbs
I have finally touched the 250's. TWO FRAKING FIFTYS! The last time I was in the 250's was in 2007. It's such a great feeling to see that number.
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