Holding Steady

Weigh in this morning: 264.0

Holding steady, but I can almost feel the next drop coming.  Its strange, the ebb and flow that is becoming more normal with my weight loss. I'll have to break out another graph soon - cause they are fun to look at!

Today's lunch is Pita Chips and Garlic Hummus from Whole Foods.  Damn delicious!

I had a great food learning experience this morning.  The Husbeast had another follow up dr's appointment for his knees (double quad-tendon rupture repairs).  So appointment at 7am... Doctor sees us at 8:30am.. you know the drill.  Ug.  So much waiting.   ANYWAY - after we were done we stopped in the restaurant in the building for a breakfast taco before work.   Corn tortillas, egg, bacon, cheese, potatoes, salsa. 

I used to eat 2 or 3 of these bad boys, and a full coffee, and then be hungry and eating again in an hour.  Today I started noshing on it, got halfway through and realized that I wasn't going to be able to eat it all.  So I pulled the tortilla back , ate a little more of the filling, and was done.  

Its was the noticing. I noticed that I was getting full. I changed my behavior and stayed in my limit.  I was happy.  It was a nice learning moment. My eye's are changing finally - they are starting to see what I can and should be eating. No looking at how much more more more more. 

Re-training is awesome!

December already!

I can NOT believe that it is December already! Wow! Time is flying.

Last night was our Christmas party: appy's, buffet dinner, free drinks, dessert, games, prizes, photo booth.

I had half a glass of white, 3 shrimps on skewers, and 1 small bit of tuna. Dinner was a smattering of food - salad, mashed potatoes, chicken, steak, bean casserole, bun.  Honestly, I'm starting to get more picky. Its a great feeling. I eat on what protein is good, have a few bits of the rest, and I fill up so fast that I lose interest.

I can't stress enough how this is a WHOLE NEW WORLD.  I was a power and land-speed record eater. I would have had 2 plates, 3 drinks, 3 buns, and.... here is the crazy.

We SKIPPED DESSERT.  Our party had a photo booth thing, so the hubby and I stopped there on the way to the dessert table. By the time that we were done... there was none left.  I really couldn't have been happier. 

We stayed overnight at a hotel near the party for a nice treat. Breakfast included.  I left bacon (among other things) on my plate.

LEFT.BACON.ON.MY.PLATE

Yeah... I didn't want it.  meh. I had a bit, it was good, I was full.  

Fraking crazy!

okay - anyway.  I just did my weigh in since we didn't get home until late morning and I've been running around.

Weigh In: 264.6

Yes!

Thankful

Today is a trigger day for me, and so, the day before thanksgiving I'm going to give you my "thankful" post.

Today I'm suffering through some of my binge eating triggers. Pain, frustration, stress, tired, grocery shopping and the worst part...time in my car. AKA: the food chariot. The ugly scene of many a food crime that I have committed against myself for years.

I "WANT" candy, chocolate, ice cream, crackers, sweets, pie, whipped cream..... You name it. I want it in my mouth.

But today, I have been saved from myself. The sleeve will not allow me to get out of control. It was both exhilarating and irritating.

The old ugly binge beast has reared it's head and it demands to be fed. I was going to give in, i was going to sit in my car and eat cookies and chocolate. but my surgery is helping me. Today my sleeve is Gandolf, "YOU SHALL NOT PASS!"

Picture is my binge: cottage cheese, hard boiled eggs, roasted chicken, red & green peppers. (unpictured: handful of nuts). Ate half. :)