May 2013 Recap

May recap

The Numbers:

April 30 - 245.6
May 1 - 246.4
May 2 - 246.8
May 3 - 246.2
May 4 - 246.6
May 6 - 246
May 8 - 245

May 9 - 243.2

May 10 - 243.8

May 11 - 243.8

May 12 - 244.4

May 13 - 245.2

May 14 - 245.8

May 15 - 246.8

May 16 - 245.8

May 17 - 245.4

May 18 - 244

May 19 - 244.4

May 20 - 243.2

May 21 - 243.2

May 22 - 242.6

May 23 - 243.2

May 24 - 242.8

May 25 - 242.4

May 26 - 242

May 27 - 241.2

May 28 - 241.2

May 29 - 240.8 (-60lbs)

May 30 - 240.6
May 31 – 241.2

Pounds lost in May: 4.4

Pounds lost overall: 59.8

May has been an interesting month. I started it out with an injury and a massive up/down and stalling out.  Mid-month, I was feeling better and made a BIG change in the amount of water that I was getting in a day.  This really helped turn this month around in terms of losing weight, and honestly – feeling better.  I did a really bad job of water yesterday – so todays “up” weigh in was not too big a surprise to me.  But, I know I’m on track right now, and that’s a good feeling.  Very positive!!

I’m still plagued with hip/groin issues.  I fly out to WI for work tonight and am back on Monday night. I’m a little scared that I might be setting myself up for a disaster if I push too hard.  So I have my foam roller packed, and my lacrosse ball – that I use to do massage on the big muscles – i.e. sitting on that ball to get my glutes and hams rubbed out from any tightness that might move back into the groin.

In terms of successes… I’ve not changed a size down yet in my clothing, but everything that I have fits much better. My XL shirts are comfortable and getting a little tiny bit loose.  I feel more comfortable in them and that is SUCCESS!  I’ll take it.  I actually shopped in 0ld Nvy and fit very nicely into the XL’s.  I can see that I’ll be a size L in there quite soon.  Exciting stuff.

I also hit my -60lbs goal this month (okay – its 59.8, but as I said in my other post – I’ll take it!).  

240.8

that is all!   :D

60 lb Goal

This morning was a very happy surprise.  Gold Star Happy!

Weigh in : 241.2



That is 59.8lbs lost... so, between you and me..... let's just call that 60!!  :)

60 Fraking Pounds!!!!!





I would also like to note - mostly for myself, that I really believe that I can attribute my loss at the end of this month to my water intake finally increasing again.

It is so damn important to get the water in.  I'm feeling better, I look better, I have better movements and more regular(!!), and I find that I'm not eating as much.  I was actually eating when I was thirsty.  Now I make sure that I take water with me ever where.

I've been doing other things right too, and got back on top of being very strick with my WLS directions:

1. no drinking with meals
2. stop eating when I'm full (this is a HARD one for me who is a classic stuffer, think.... wolf gulping food down at a kill)
3. More Protein

:)  Tamzin, keep at it and before long you will be in the 230's.!! 

I also spent some time reading through all my monthly and bi-monthly reports.  Its good reading for me, look back, see what I was thinking, what has changed, how I feel, how I felt. 

I remember distinctly being 231lbs in college, and one of the mens athletic team (that I was a member of the womens section) bothering me about it. It will be unreal to be back down there.  The lowest adult weight I remember was when I was 25.  I was 195lbs for about a week, but that was serious starvation dieting for an event and a dress that I had bought...

Its very exciting to think about getting down to that weight.  I already look so different, its going to be very interesting! 

In fact, I'm at the office this morning getting a few hours of work in, and we have a brunch date at 10:30with friends I have not seen in 5 months.  They are going to freak out.  I'm kind of looking forward to it.

Half Way

Holy #*($&##

I'm half way to my goal weight of 185lbs.  In fact, just over half way. How the hell did this sneak up on me without me even thinking about it?!??!?!?!?

Weigh in this morning: 242.8

Thats 58.2lbs lost.  Its just over 7 months since surgery and almost 60lbs gone, another 57.8lbs to go.  WOW!

If I manage to lose 4.8lbs a month, I will be there in 1 year from now.  

.....Well, thats pretty optimistic, i dont actually think that I could lose that as a sustainable amount each month.  I think its closer to 3lbs a month, which will be 19 months to goal weight.   However, that means ...... that on my 40th birthday I'll be under 200lbs. That's a goal I can get behind!!!!

There is no better gift to give to myself than that.  

Magic Pill

The Husbeast was out of town last night, and as is my normal self sabotage ways... I stopped and let myself get a pint of ice cream.

Ben & Jerry's American Dream. I used to polish off one of those, a large pizza and 2 cokes.

Even with success,there is still the need to overfeed, binge, self sabotage. Its the ugly side of food for me.  That I still look at it as a secret. I would NEVER do that if he was home, and well, he would give me the side eye and tell me not to.. so there is that as well.

I know that I can't eat a whole pint anymore, the sleeve has fixed that. But tat desire to feel sick from eating is still there.  So, that happened. I ate ice cream on the sofa until I was sick.  Which is really NOT the way that I want to maintain my weight.  Throwing up is not good for you. Neither is eating a pint of ice cream. arg.

In terms of eating, I had been really quite good for the last week, and the scale is showing it.  I cut back on the amount of eating out we have done. Upped my proteins in the work day and my water. Both of which are helping. 

I did binge on ice cream last night, but not much of it stayed in. That just serves to highlight my success and failure at weight loss. I really wish that there was a magic pill for this - head and .  I mean, I've had the sleeve surgery, which is about as close as I could come to a magic pill, but as everyone knows (who's had surgery, lapband etc), that there is STILL work to be done. This sleeve is a tool. It keeps things in check, just like carrying a smaller purse keeps me from lugging my whole world around on my shoulder.  However, I still have to pick what go IN there.

Anyway, I think that writing about my food activity - the good and the bad - more. I wasn't going to .... I was just going to post my weight and try to forget about this happening.   Writing this out and really examining myself and my eating is going to help in the end.  I also confessed to the Husband, and let him know what I did, another thing that I wasn't going to do.

Weigh in this morning, 242.6. A new low for me!  :)   Which makes me happy, but also makes me aware that I don't want to think of it as a reward for bad behavior.  So, keep drinking that water, and keep eating that protein girl.

Good Mornig

Well, I'm feeling great - another morning weigh-in in the 243's and I didn't even get a morning p00p in today! haha  Take that TMI for morning blog reading.

I can see the difference in the shirt that I'm wearing. Last I put it on, maybe 10days ago, it felt a LITTLE too tight, but I wore it anyway.  Today, it doesn't feel like its gripping me for dear life. Today, it just is nicely fitted.  :)  

I'm on track to hit my water target for 9am.  I have noticed that if I get on it early, and don't spend the whole day trying to "catch up", I do a lot better.  So, today I'm going to stay on it.  CONSTANT VIGILANCE!

The other great news is that we have a contract on a new house for us.  I'm super excited, nervous and worried. Of course, all that good stuff.  We are booking the inspections and surveys, and we are going to renno the kitchen a little, new back splash, repaint the lower cupboards, take out the top ones and put in some nice simple open shelving.  I'm excited.  I'm going to do some painting as well - most of the house is "move-in beige", and I can't stand that in the bedroom.  Happily, both bathrooms are a nice light blue, so that's a job I don't have to do. Anyway - speculation is best done before the hard work begins. 

Right, like I've said before - I must really hate myself. I'm super busy at work and all this other stuff... now we are buying, and renno'ing a home.  I can see where my weekends are going to be.

okay - back to my water and work.

:)

Morning constitutional before weigh in = 244.0!

Yes, back on track!