Check in

I feel spread too thin... Ironically since I've been casually gaining weight for the last three months. 

I finished my first semester back in college in 18 yrs. waiting for my final grades to get entered. 

New job/promotion in feb is hard. Really hard. I feel like I suck at it and in not good and know nothing. I feel sick most days at work. 

It's not a good feeling at all. 

However. I've got a few habits back on track and am on a slow down swing again. Water. Packed lunches. Less snacking. 

AnywY. That's all for now. 

245.0

I am now heavier by .2lbs than when I started tracking on myfitnessspal on January 1, 2014. 

I lost 10lbs and have now gained it all back. 

Very depressing. 

It doesn't FEEL like I've changed my eating. I know I'm not getting enought water, but clearly I'm getting this food shit wrong. 

Back to school stress.

New job stress. 

I clearly have no coping skills other than to stuff my face. 

Blah. Time to take a long hard look in the mirror and remember, food is no friend of mine. 

February Recap 2015

Well, down .4lbs 

Feb 1 243.6

Feb 28 243.2

Today 241.4

Guess what! I'm going to be happy about it!! 

College classes are in full swing. Survived my midterms and keeping it in the 80's. 

Started new job this month, it's less fun than I was hoping, but I'm going to power through and just keep at it. Trying to stay positive. 

Bonus time is here!! 2 weeks until that pays out.

I've been maintaining my weights routine and actually working at drinking more water!! Yay!

All in all, I snack too much and over serve my meals. Trying to work at both those. 

Feeling a little reflective so Henry Rollins it is. 

January Recap 2015

Good lord. 

Every time I set a goal I gain weight. 

Every snack becomes my "last snack". 

It's a vicious cycle I put myself through. This month past it has been in full force. 

+4.8lbs

Sigh. Time to .... Once again.... Get back to basics. 

Goal: 215

Well, announced to my work out partners that my goal this year is to get to 215lbs. 

I never do well at these sorts of things, so making it public will help. The other lady is about 10lbs heavier than me, so she is going to aim for 215 too. She has 35 to lose.

Also our coach has got to drop 18lbs for his powerlifting weight class. So we are all in.

Today I did great:

Better water intake.

Breakfast, lunch & dinner on track

Few too many "treats" but less than normal. 3 cookies and 3 mini chocolates

Workout done:

Bench press 3 sets x 5 reps 100lbs

Complex work of 3 sets x 8 reps

Hang cleans 50lbs

Overhead press 50lbs

Hanging knee raises

It was a tough one!!

Water, breakfast, protein & tracking snacks is where I'm going to really focus right now.

2014 in review!

Well, it's been an interesting year. I wouldn't classify it as particularly successful in the weight loss department, but I've been building in some areas and just ignoring others. 

December:

Year long:

Working out:

I've been keeping to my weekly weights, which is good. Getting stronger and my abs and arms are showing some real  muscle progress.

Work: 

This year brought some work changes. I accepted a new position at my current company. A promotion, new department and an amazing opportunity. I will start the transition to the new job in early feb. 

I wouldn't say my boss is very happy to see me go, but -long story short- if you are not going to fulfill your promises about this job then I will find another. 

School:

The other great opportunity that is being provided to me is that with this current position I will also be going back to school to finish my BBA. Yay!!!!!!! 

Forward progress:

Time to get off the "snack" horse and start tracking my food and water again. I want to make some better weight progress in the next year. 15-20lbs. 

Getting down to 220 in 2015...or maybe it should be 215 in 2015! Ha!! 

Either way, getting my planning back on track is going to be the key for this year, it's going to be a busy one! 

Nov update

Back on the up down. But I'm going to remIn happy that I'm still in the zone. I wanted to be in the 229 range for New Years. So time to start working at my tracking of food again. 

Free feeding is keeping me here.