Wish

Ug... Those famous words....

Wish in one hand, piss in the other. See which one fills up first. 

I wish...

That I hated food and only ate because I needed to. 

That I didn't think about food all the time.

That there was something else in my life that made me feel as good as eating. 

June Recap 2015

245.8

Job bullshit came to a head this last week. 

My new boss was demoted, and I've been wondering what will happen to me. 

This morning I was offered a new position in another department, which I think will suit me a lot better. Phew!

Been trying to get more water in, middling success. 

Exercise is getting better, squats are going up in weight and I'm starting to feel strong again. 

Food.... Still snacking when I'm not hungry, but I'm slowly reigning it in. 

Wrote my midterms, passed. 

Just pounding away at my courses and pushing through. 

Oh look

What two days of drinking water more frequently and eating slightly more responsibly can do. 

When will I learn to keep at this ALL the time? 

Feeling more positive. 

May Recap 2015

Argggggggg. 246.2

Man, I'm really sucking ballz at:

Water - less than 2L a day typically

Sleep - less than 6 hrs a night

Snacking - greater than 3 extra snacks a day 

Meals - greater amounts than I need to eat. 

Gawds. I keep saying the same thing. 

Do better

Do better

Do better

I keep not doing it. 

I'm in a funk. I hate my job. I can't sleep. I'm in school full time at night. I only want to eat carbs and cry all the time. 

April Recap 2015

Ended the month at 243.4.

It's been a lot if the same- up downs for my weight. 

However, I've made some positive changes: 

- Bringing my lunches

- Snacking less

- More water

- No pop

- Still working out (yay!)

The bad stuff:

- Thinking that indeed "dessert"

- The stress levels are sky high

- I'm not enjoying my job at all

- I'm not sleeping well (stress)

Life marches onwards and the summer semester starts tomorrow so back full swing into studying and papers. 

Check in

I feel spread too thin... Ironically since I've been casually gaining weight for the last three months. 

I finished my first semester back in college in 18 yrs. waiting for my final grades to get entered. 

New job/promotion in feb is hard. Really hard. I feel like I suck at it and in not good and know nothing. I feel sick most days at work. 

It's not a good feeling at all. 

However. I've got a few habits back on track and am on a slow down swing again. Water. Packed lunches. Less snacking. 

AnywY. That's all for now.