Oh look

What two days of drinking water more frequently and eating slightly more responsibly can do. 

When will I learn to keep at this ALL the time? 

Feeling more positive. 

May Recap 2015

Argggggggg. 246.2

Man, I'm really sucking ballz at:

Water - less than 2L a day typically

Sleep - less than 6 hrs a night

Snacking - greater than 3 extra snacks a day 

Meals - greater amounts than I need to eat. 

Gawds. I keep saying the same thing. 

Do better

Do better

Do better

I keep not doing it. 

I'm in a funk. I hate my job. I can't sleep. I'm in school full time at night. I only want to eat carbs and cry all the time. 

April Recap 2015

Ended the month at 243.4.

It's been a lot if the same- up downs for my weight. 

However, I've made some positive changes: 

- Bringing my lunches

- Snacking less

- More water

- No pop

- Still working out (yay!)

The bad stuff:

- Thinking that indeed "dessert"

- The stress levels are sky high

- I'm not enjoying my job at all

- I'm not sleeping well (stress)

Life marches onwards and the summer semester starts tomorrow so back full swing into studying and papers. 

Check in

I feel spread too thin... Ironically since I've been casually gaining weight for the last three months. 

I finished my first semester back in college in 18 yrs. waiting for my final grades to get entered. 

New job/promotion in feb is hard. Really hard. I feel like I suck at it and in not good and know nothing. I feel sick most days at work. 

It's not a good feeling at all. 

However. I've got a few habits back on track and am on a slow down swing again. Water. Packed lunches. Less snacking. 

AnywY. That's all for now. 

245.0

I am now heavier by .2lbs than when I started tracking on myfitnessspal on January 1, 2014. 

I lost 10lbs and have now gained it all back. 

Very depressing. 

It doesn't FEEL like I've changed my eating. I know I'm not getting enought water, but clearly I'm getting this food shit wrong. 

Back to school stress.

New job stress. 

I clearly have no coping skills other than to stuff my face. 

Blah. Time to take a long hard look in the mirror and remember, food is no friend of mine. 

February Recap 2015

Well, down .4lbs 

Feb 1 243.6

Feb 28 243.2

Today 241.4

Guess what! I'm going to be happy about it!! 

College classes are in full swing. Survived my midterms and keeping it in the 80's. 

Started new job this month, it's less fun than I was hoping, but I'm going to power through and just keep at it. Trying to stay positive. 

Bonus time is here!! 2 weeks until that pays out.

I've been maintaining my weights routine and actually working at drinking more water!! Yay!

All in all, I snack too much and over serve my meals. Trying to work at both those. 

Feeling a little reflective so Henry Rollins it is. 

January Recap 2015

Good lord. 

Every time I set a goal I gain weight. 

Every snack becomes my "last snack". 

It's a vicious cycle I put myself through. This month past it has been in full force. 

+4.8lbs

Sigh. Time to .... Once again.... Get back to basics.